WOW! What a week!
Hmm..I don't remember the last time I wrote in here....Oh well, I'll start with last weekend. That was fun. I let Phil drive my car and we ran over a sign...which stopped us from flipping. Fun fun fun! Then I spent the night at Phil's house...I fell asleep in Dennis's arms...that was great. Then I woke up at 5AM to drive home to go to work. That was okay. Work was fun. well, the people were fun...working is working. LOL. But I like my job. FREE FOOD!!! LOL.
Anyways, then Dennis doesn't email me, so I call him...yeah. Bad call. :( He proceeded to tell me that he cheated on me with the town's whore...Trista. Yeah they french kissed and he felt her up and she gave him a blow job. Yeah, loving boyfriend!!!! But, I forgave him....I can't believe I cried over the phone though. But I was more in control the last few times we talked. It still bothers me, but I'm pretending that it doesn't because I told him that I forgave him. So, I should just get over it. I don't know it just makes me feel like shit! That's all. He really hurt me. I trusted him....he's the last person I thought would do that. I guess I was wrong. I'm trying my best to believe him when he says that he won't do it again. I want to believe him and I don't want it to happen again. I love him too much to let go, but yet it seems the more i care about him, the more he hurts me. I guess that's a mystery I'll never be able to solve.
ANyways, we're still together and I'm going down to see him this weekend. the people he lives with like me. :) They're really nice. They want me to sing some more karaoke this weekend. So, I'm bringing my karaoke machine down. :)
Hmmm...what else exciting happening...well, I worked Tuesday...yeah and Dennis got drunk...that was fun talking to him over the phone when he was wasted. LOL. He was funny.
Yeah so far the plan is that we're going to stay the night at Phil's house...together. Cool,huh? I think so. :)
I know Julie hates him...and I don't blame her either. Actually I'm glad that she chewed him out. He deserved it, I just couldn't do it...I love him to much. Which I've decided is definitely a flaw!!! But, as long as it doesn't happen again okay. If it happens again I'm going to be the one telling him where to go and how to get there. I love him, but if he does it again obviously he doesn't give a darn if he hurts me, so I'll hurt him back, but not by lowering myself and cheating on him or saying that I did. I'll just tell him that obviously if he's getting it elsewhere he doens't need it from me, so bye. :) But I truly don't think he'll do it again.
Well, I have a lot to do today....starting with my paper that I have to write for tomorrow. oh what fun! Then I have to study and clean my side of the room that looks horrible....sorry Julie...I'm gonna clean it!!! I swear. LOL. Then I have to do laundry...fun fun fun! and pack my stuff for Friday (tomorrow). YAY. I'm not telling my parents that i'm down though...actually I might go with my parents when they go to Detroit the following weekend. I know Dennis will probably want to see me, but I'm spending this entire weekend with him, so he'll have to deal with me spending a weekend with my sis and parents. Or I might just stay home....that's probably the more likely of the two. I don't really have the money to be going down there. Yeah he says that he'll pay half the phone bill...that's cuz he doens't know how high it is! it's like $160!!! I mean, I can save up and pay it all by next month, but still....that's a lot. From now on I'm not calling him without a calling card.
Okay, I guess that's all for now....bye bye
Anyways, then Dennis doesn't email me, so I call him...yeah. Bad call. :( He proceeded to tell me that he cheated on me with the town's whore...Trista. Yeah they french kissed and he felt her up and she gave him a blow job. Yeah, loving boyfriend!!!! But, I forgave him....I can't believe I cried over the phone though. But I was more in control the last few times we talked. It still bothers me, but I'm pretending that it doesn't because I told him that I forgave him. So, I should just get over it. I don't know it just makes me feel like shit! That's all. He really hurt me. I trusted him....he's the last person I thought would do that. I guess I was wrong. I'm trying my best to believe him when he says that he won't do it again. I want to believe him and I don't want it to happen again. I love him too much to let go, but yet it seems the more i care about him, the more he hurts me. I guess that's a mystery I'll never be able to solve.
ANyways, we're still together and I'm going down to see him this weekend. the people he lives with like me. :) They're really nice. They want me to sing some more karaoke this weekend. So, I'm bringing my karaoke machine down. :)
Hmmm...what else exciting happening...well, I worked Tuesday...yeah and Dennis got drunk...that was fun talking to him over the phone when he was wasted. LOL. He was funny.
Yeah so far the plan is that we're going to stay the night at Phil's house...together. Cool,huh? I think so. :)
I know Julie hates him...and I don't blame her either. Actually I'm glad that she chewed him out. He deserved it, I just couldn't do it...I love him to much. Which I've decided is definitely a flaw!!! But, as long as it doesn't happen again okay. If it happens again I'm going to be the one telling him where to go and how to get there. I love him, but if he does it again obviously he doesn't give a darn if he hurts me, so I'll hurt him back, but not by lowering myself and cheating on him or saying that I did. I'll just tell him that obviously if he's getting it elsewhere he doens't need it from me, so bye. :) But I truly don't think he'll do it again.
Well, I have a lot to do today....starting with my paper that I have to write for tomorrow. oh what fun! Then I have to study and clean my side of the room that looks horrible....sorry Julie...I'm gonna clean it!!! I swear. LOL. Then I have to do laundry...fun fun fun! and pack my stuff for Friday (tomorrow). YAY. I'm not telling my parents that i'm down though...actually I might go with my parents when they go to Detroit the following weekend. I know Dennis will probably want to see me, but I'm spending this entire weekend with him, so he'll have to deal with me spending a weekend with my sis and parents. Or I might just stay home....that's probably the more likely of the two. I don't really have the money to be going down there. Yeah he says that he'll pay half the phone bill...that's cuz he doens't know how high it is! it's like $160!!! I mean, I can save up and pay it all by next month, but still....that's a lot. From now on I'm not calling him without a calling card.
Okay, I guess that's all for now....bye bye