you've got it all wrong.....

[catheist]

I don't know what to tell you about Alissa. I just know that i've been through that exact same thing. like you said, he never liked me enough. But about her missing you least, i slept over her house last night and we were talking about how casey didn't call you that much and how i tried to. and she's like "well, whenever i didn't call, i was thinking about him a lot! i missed him!" swear on god. and about the me liking casey and eugene more than you...it's not true at all. yes, i'm really really good friends with them now, but you're still my best friend. you're still the one i tell everything to, you're still the one that i come to with my problems. you're the one who knows everything about me and about my history and my friends and all that crap. they don't know that much about me at all. and you were the one who introduced me to casey and eugene, it's not like we're breaking apart the group...in my opinion, we're bringing it together. now on the subject of everyone having someone...that's bullshit. yeah maybe julia and alex are seclusive, but eugene hasn't seen morgan for like a month. they haven't been doing anything.......ben and maya still hang out with everyone, not like julia and alex....casey doesn't have someone, i don't have someone, i really don't think that's a big deal. that doesn't mean shit. yeah there's going to be couples. big deal, they're still our friends. at least julia and alex hang out with all of us TOGETHER! alex and aili never even hung out with ANYONE. IMAGINE how i felt. just imagine....i didn't know alex what to get him for his birthday last year. i got him a fucking POSTER. becuase i hadn't talked to him for so long i had NO idea what to get him. at least they hang out with us. and you knwo what? back on subject, you've only been back for two days, myke. it's gonna take some time to get used to the minute changes. just stop worrying about who's friends with who now. it honestly doesn't matter, you still have the same status with us as you did when you left. and about alissa, i think it just takes some getting over. if she doesn't like you, all you can do is make sure that she doesn't get away as a FRIEND. look what happened to me, and i'm miserable. just make sure you're still friends. you'll find someone. i promise. don't fret over it. you're not in any RUSH.

love you.
Kati.

PS. sorry it took so long.