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I think this year I want an UNbirthday. I don't want to get any older.
I sometimes feel like I am about 50 at the moment!! With the stresses and aches I am getting - woe is me!
I never thought I would get this old, I remember when I was 16 and free - it was blissful. Now I am so tied down and committed its scary! How did I commit so much when I am totally phobic about it normally!?
All the things I hoped I would have acheived by now, like driving a car, *owning* a car, maybe owning a house, having lush holidays around the world because I had that much disposable income...I'm on my way to looking 30 in the eye squarely and wondering where my life went?
I am happy with my life, don't get me wrong, but all those foolish dreams...I won't be able to complete some fo the things for a while yet, but at least we don't die till *fingers crossed* 80 odd I kind of have a head start.
Looking for wrinkles now! I think I might have to invest in some hardcore beauty regime. Done Clinique, done Lush, starting on Lancome, but might bite the bullet and spend a LOT when I get a new job and go to Kendals...
I think the thing that is making me feel the most old is the fact I am still not in shape after birth. But all that relies on me getting a new job. I need the income and then I can join a gym (with a pool) and go every day after work. I know it will only take a month or two to get where I want but I don't have the time or the energy right now. Being a stay at home mum is quite tiring.
I have even started to *make* real food like Calzone's from scratch, with a baby screaming (teething) in his highchair in a safe corner of the kitchen. Save me from domesticity. I need some freedom again to be me inside. Then I can be a little bit selfish and get me right in my head again. Sigh.
10 need a job
20 go to 10
I sometimes feel like I am about 50 at the moment!! With the stresses and aches I am getting - woe is me!
I never thought I would get this old, I remember when I was 16 and free - it was blissful. Now I am so tied down and committed its scary! How did I commit so much when I am totally phobic about it normally!?
All the things I hoped I would have acheived by now, like driving a car, *owning* a car, maybe owning a house, having lush holidays around the world because I had that much disposable income...I'm on my way to looking 30 in the eye squarely and wondering where my life went?
I am happy with my life, don't get me wrong, but all those foolish dreams...I won't be able to complete some fo the things for a while yet, but at least we don't die till *fingers crossed* 80 odd I kind of have a head start.
Looking for wrinkles now! I think I might have to invest in some hardcore beauty regime. Done Clinique, done Lush, starting on Lancome, but might bite the bullet and spend a LOT when I get a new job and go to Kendals...
I think the thing that is making me feel the most old is the fact I am still not in shape after birth. But all that relies on me getting a new job. I need the income and then I can join a gym (with a pool) and go every day after work. I know it will only take a month or two to get where I want but I don't have the time or the energy right now. Being a stay at home mum is quite tiring.
I have even started to *make* real food like Calzone's from scratch, with a baby screaming (teething) in his highchair in a safe corner of the kitchen. Save me from domesticity. I need some freedom again to be me inside. Then I can be a little bit selfish and get me right in my head again. Sigh.
10 need a job
20 go to 10