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So. He has a girlfriend. He said he didn't want a girlfriend, and that's why he wouldn't date me again. I had no reason to not believe him...I'd trust him with my life. I've never known him to lie about anything. He doesn't lie. So why couldn't he just have told me straight up, "I don't want to be with you." Yes, it would've hurt, but I would've understood. I love him, and it hurts so much to know that he doesn't care about me enough to tell me the truth. It makes me question everything else he's told me. I saw it coming...a week ago, when I saw them driving in his car, I had the feeling that something was going on. I found out yesterday, but for some reason, it just really hit me today. HE LIED TO ME. I feel completely betrayed. I'm not insanely jealous...I mean, sure I'm jealous, but not enough to make a difference in my feelings toward the situation. The guy I love lied to me. That's my issue with them. I'm very happy for her: she's got the most amazing guy for a boyfriend. I'm happy for him as well: if she didn't make him happier than I did, he wouldn't be with her. I'm so happy for both of them...I just wish he could've been straight-forward with me. That's what hurts the most. That he couldn't tell me the truth.