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I'm too indecisive for my own good.
I don't want to let go, I don't want to hold on.. I think that I try too hard to make things work. He doesn't know that I'm willing to wait however long it takes. I haven't told him, for that matter. That's another thing: I can't ever say what I really want to say. It just turns out as an "I don't know....". I have such a problem letting people know what I'm really thinking.
No one could ever love someone like me.. someone who isn't even close to perfect, and never will be. Wether its dealing with outward or inward things, I'm falling behind.
All I want is to be the center of someone's world.
All I want is to be happy.
Hm.
Anyway, today really sucked, work wise. Somehow I managed to knock an entire shelf of books and whatnot onto my head without hardly touching the damn thing.. I was getting told to do a million different things at once DURING RUSH.. I just wanted to go home.
About 6:58, Abby and Mattie come in and ask if I want to go to get somethin' to eat and bowl.. and I gladly accept, because I know that she can always cheer me up :)
We go to Mr. Daves and grab some food and head to Warvel Park to eat.. Well, the bowling alley was closed by the time we walked across the street. Stupid old ladies.
So we go back to Ab's and just kind of chill for a bit, and decide to go for a walk.
We walked all the way across town to Subway, and decide we don't want to walk back so we call Jessica for a ride :) haha.
I'm sick of feeling so down most of the time.
I'm sick of worrying about everything.
I'm sick of not knowing what's going on.
End this now, we've gone too far
Let's take back words that turn to scars
If I could find a way to turn back time
Had to let you know I'm on your side
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I need you now, we're miles apart
I'll keep you deep inside
You're always in my heart
I need you now, we're miles apart
I may be leaving but you're always in my heart
(ohh, look, two lyrics.. haha)