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Women's Team Dinner
Oregon Trail Party
Apple Picking
Improve
Joy and Kisses
NYC
JasperMelissaMimiNate
Delicious Vegan Food
Animal Collective
Great weekend. The city was exactly what I needed. I didn't realize how much I needed to just get away and think things out. My mind really ran in circles, but I think its all figured out. I realized so much about myself and what I am doing right now. I literally see everything differently now. I am honestly the happiest I have ever been, and it feels great. I didn't realize how sad I was before. I have been so so sad for so so long. Everything is not perfect right now, it really isn't, but its just that I am suddenly accepting it all. I am doing exactly what I want to be doing right now. I am the only one that is going to make me happy. I don't know why I thought I had myself figured out before--I didn't. We never figure ourselves out. But we grow, we evolve, and everyday I am become more of the person I always realized I could be. This isn't about changing the world anymore. This is about no longer being afraid of myself. This is about finally being proud to be myself. In the most intense way possible. This is about realizing that not everything needs to be rationalized, and that if I don't want to do something I am not going to do it because I feel like I should. This about taking care of myself. This is about me being a new person. This is about living in the here and now. This is about being happy.
I am so excited for life right now.
Oregon Trail Party
Apple Picking
Improve
Joy and Kisses
NYC
JasperMelissaMimiNate
Delicious Vegan Food
Animal Collective
Great weekend. The city was exactly what I needed. I didn't realize how much I needed to just get away and think things out. My mind really ran in circles, but I think its all figured out. I realized so much about myself and what I am doing right now. I literally see everything differently now. I am honestly the happiest I have ever been, and it feels great. I didn't realize how sad I was before. I have been so so sad for so so long. Everything is not perfect right now, it really isn't, but its just that I am suddenly accepting it all. I am doing exactly what I want to be doing right now. I am the only one that is going to make me happy. I don't know why I thought I had myself figured out before--I didn't. We never figure ourselves out. But we grow, we evolve, and everyday I am become more of the person I always realized I could be. This isn't about changing the world anymore. This is about no longer being afraid of myself. This is about finally being proud to be myself. In the most intense way possible. This is about realizing that not everything needs to be rationalized, and that if I don't want to do something I am not going to do it because I feel like I should. This about taking care of myself. This is about me being a new person. This is about living in the here and now. This is about being happy.
I am so excited for life right now.