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So I dont think I could emotionally deal with writing a 'freshmen year' reflection...or even an entry about what I hope for next year/summer...so instead I will write about the last few days, because they were crazy and changed everything.
So I finished up exams on Wednesday, which was really really nice. I went to a dinner for work and it was really chill and wonderful. It was with a bunch of seniors and young alumni and it was really refreshing to be around more mature and together people. Many of the seniors didn't really know what they were doing next year and it was just nice to see that them being relaxed about. It was reassuring in a way to know that I don't need to have my shit together after I graduate. But some of the people were also really together and were leading amazing lives. All in all everyone seemed really happy and chill--and that is how I hope to leave Vassar. They were all people I hope to be like and it was nice to see the kind of people that Vassar can produce. I don't really know many seniors, so it was nice getting to know some for a night.
Thursday night was also a lot of fun, but in a different way. Amanda and I organized a 40s party--we bought twelve 40s and two 30 racks. It was UK themed and played the game Queens instead of Kings. It was really chill and I think it went well. We partied in the basement and put the beers in the washing machine. Glad to know I can throw a party. Good times. Interesting things happened with a boy afterwards, in a good way of course.
Friday night? Good old fashioned crew party. It was the first I had a lot of fun at and man did I have a lot of fun..I drank, but not excessively so. It was a lot of heart to hearts and reminded me of how much I love that team. I really dont think I will be doing crew next year though. It is weird because crew has basically been my life this past year...waking up every morning was really hard, but at the same time I loved it. I loved being on the water every morning and there was something about the boat that just made me so happy. When I was really hating Vassar it was crew that made it all okay for me, it was crew that kept me at Vassar. So now it is weird to think I wont be doing it. But I just can't...I have so much on my plate for next year and I was just not sleeping any more. Also, crew was MY LIFE. Which was good and bad...it mostly meant however that I didnt get to see my other friends. I started to dread the weekends because I missing out on so much weekend fun and so busy with crew regattas that I just never had time for school work. I really felt like I was starting to fall behind in all of my classes and being constantly stressed out. That is not the life I wanted to live. So as fun as crew was, I am going to have to say goodbye to it. It treated me well and I always tried my hardest to be the best coxswain I could be. That is all I could do.
Last night was a good ol' frisbee party. I love everyone on that team and if I pick up another team it will definitely be frisbee. I got pretty drunk and did somethings I probably shouldn't have. I am turning into a dumb bitch. Oh god. But it was a hell of a last night to the school year, and I guess there is nothing else to say about it.
There were a lot of things I regret in the last few days, but I guess there is nothing else I can do about it. All is well that ends well I guess. Ok, reflection later, I promise, I need it to organize my thoughts.
Anyway, I am back home to dirty jersey...soo...summer...here I come!
So I finished up exams on Wednesday, which was really really nice. I went to a dinner for work and it was really chill and wonderful. It was with a bunch of seniors and young alumni and it was really refreshing to be around more mature and together people. Many of the seniors didn't really know what they were doing next year and it was just nice to see that them being relaxed about. It was reassuring in a way to know that I don't need to have my shit together after I graduate. But some of the people were also really together and were leading amazing lives. All in all everyone seemed really happy and chill--and that is how I hope to leave Vassar. They were all people I hope to be like and it was nice to see the kind of people that Vassar can produce. I don't really know many seniors, so it was nice getting to know some for a night.
Thursday night was also a lot of fun, but in a different way. Amanda and I organized a 40s party--we bought twelve 40s and two 30 racks. It was UK themed and played the game Queens instead of Kings. It was really chill and I think it went well. We partied in the basement and put the beers in the washing machine. Glad to know I can throw a party. Good times. Interesting things happened with a boy afterwards, in a good way of course.
Friday night? Good old fashioned crew party. It was the first I had a lot of fun at and man did I have a lot of fun..I drank, but not excessively so. It was a lot of heart to hearts and reminded me of how much I love that team. I really dont think I will be doing crew next year though. It is weird because crew has basically been my life this past year...waking up every morning was really hard, but at the same time I loved it. I loved being on the water every morning and there was something about the boat that just made me so happy. When I was really hating Vassar it was crew that made it all okay for me, it was crew that kept me at Vassar. So now it is weird to think I wont be doing it. But I just can't...I have so much on my plate for next year and I was just not sleeping any more. Also, crew was MY LIFE. Which was good and bad...it mostly meant however that I didnt get to see my other friends. I started to dread the weekends because I missing out on so much weekend fun and so busy with crew regattas that I just never had time for school work. I really felt like I was starting to fall behind in all of my classes and being constantly stressed out. That is not the life I wanted to live. So as fun as crew was, I am going to have to say goodbye to it. It treated me well and I always tried my hardest to be the best coxswain I could be. That is all I could do.
Last night was a good ol' frisbee party. I love everyone on that team and if I pick up another team it will definitely be frisbee. I got pretty drunk and did somethings I probably shouldn't have. I am turning into a dumb bitch. Oh god. But it was a hell of a last night to the school year, and I guess there is nothing else to say about it.
There were a lot of things I regret in the last few days, but I guess there is nothing else I can do about it. All is well that ends well I guess. Ok, reflection later, I promise, I need it to organize my thoughts.
Anyway, I am back home to dirty jersey...soo...summer...here I come!