Christmas and all the holiday crap that comes with it
Is not exactly my favorite time of year. I mean sure I like giving gifts and making people smile, but being alone around this time is always depressing to me. So I worked this Christmas knowing I'd miss the family get together and all the food that goes with it. However, I thought that once I got home mom and I would get to open presents and such together. That's all I really wanted. So I get home around 4 and she's still not home. I look at my phone to see that she had called and left a message. She was still at Hillary's waiting for them to eat. I called her back and told her I'd be leaving the house around 5ish. So I thought we'd just be opening presents on Saturday. Yeah, I got a little upset. I mean I had pretty much not had Christmas at all......nothing Christmasy had happened that day except for the kids at Brentwood getting their gifts, but they're not family. I guess she felt bad for leaving me out 'cause she came home for like an hour so we could do the opening presents thing. Shortly afterward she headed back to Hillary's, and I headed over to Kristin's so we could watch some movies at Andy's. So pretty much my Christmas wasn't all that great. It was just another day to me.
New Years eve is a whole nother story altogether. New Years eve is supposed to be the one time where you have someone you care about with you so you can get that New Years kiss. That's what makes this particular holiday very depressing to me. It seems I never have someone around this time of year. Sure maybe there are a couple of prospects, but no one I'm close enough to that I can feel comfortable enough to kiss this year. So, once again, I get screwed....and not in a good way. This year is gonna be doublely bad 'cause Donald might show up at Preston and Erin's on New Years eve. I really was hoping he'd be out of state like he said he was going to be, but I should have known better. I should have known he wouldn't have the money to fly anywhere like he said he would. I was really counting on not seeing him though. I have no desire to cry on New Years eve. I want to get drunk, watch fireworks, and possibly forget that I'm lonely as fuck this year.
So.....yeah. My life pretty much sucks as of right now. I just want this year to be over and done with. I will not be disappointed to see it go that's for sure.
New Years eve is a whole nother story altogether. New Years eve is supposed to be the one time where you have someone you care about with you so you can get that New Years kiss. That's what makes this particular holiday very depressing to me. It seems I never have someone around this time of year. Sure maybe there are a couple of prospects, but no one I'm close enough to that I can feel comfortable enough to kiss this year. So, once again, I get screwed....and not in a good way. This year is gonna be doublely bad 'cause Donald might show up at Preston and Erin's on New Years eve. I really was hoping he'd be out of state like he said he was going to be, but I should have known better. I should have known he wouldn't have the money to fly anywhere like he said he would. I was really counting on not seeing him though. I have no desire to cry on New Years eve. I want to get drunk, watch fireworks, and possibly forget that I'm lonely as fuck this year.
So.....yeah. My life pretty much sucks as of right now. I just want this year to be over and done with. I will not be disappointed to see it go that's for sure.