Right....
Lately I've been having these dreams. They're not bad dreams really....in fact they're really nice dreams, but Donald has been in alot of them. I don't want that. I want him to not invade the few hours that I'm actually pretty happy. It's not his fault. I mean it's not like he's in my dreams on purpose. I would rather him not be there at all. I'm not sure how to go about making that happen.....
Kristin and I are planning on going to a Magnolia Roller Vixens practice to see about joining. I can't do the roller derby stuff myself 'cause of all the fees, but maybe I can be a cheerleader or something. Either way I'm kinda interested in just seeing what goes on. I just found out last night that realmwalker1 is part of that particular group. That's pretty neat. I know Kristin knows at least two people on the team so we should at least have people we already know there. I'm looking forward to it.
Job hunting's not going so well. I started looking for internships around here....not really finding much in MS to be honest. I did find a few nonpaying ones in New Orleans for the summer, but I'm not sure if I'll even be accepted for them or if I am what I would do for money while doing it. I've still got this Brentwood application to take back. I emailed dad asking for a few hundred dollars. Haven't heard back from him yet. I'm not sure I even really want to deal with the guilt trip that he would give me if he did end up letting me borrow the money.
Things are kinda sad for me now....I'm taking alot of stuff really hard lately. It's very depressing, and I don't like it. I'm trying my damnedest to lose weight by walking every day, but it doesn't seem to be doing any good. I think if I was jogging with Donald three times a week as we had originally planned that it would help a good bit, but I just can't bring myself to even see him right now. Hell, just talking to him online sometimes upsets me. I'm gonna give myself a couple of weeks, and if I can't deal with seeing him after that, well, I just can't deal with it. I'll figure out what to do when that time comes. I have my girly issues next week so it'd be a bad time to start jogging anyway. I'm hoping dad will let me borrow that money so I can afford to get my next refill of birth control.....if not, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. I was really expecting to use the money I got from BioLife to pay for that, but since I can't go back 'til May 6th, that's impossible.
Anyway, those are my thoughts at the moment. I really want a job now.....I need something to do to keep myself from thinking so much. Oh, and the money would be nice to have so I can actually buy food and such.
Kristin and I are planning on going to a Magnolia Roller Vixens practice to see about joining. I can't do the roller derby stuff myself 'cause of all the fees, but maybe I can be a cheerleader or something. Either way I'm kinda interested in just seeing what goes on. I just found out last night that realmwalker1 is part of that particular group. That's pretty neat. I know Kristin knows at least two people on the team so we should at least have people we already know there. I'm looking forward to it.
Job hunting's not going so well. I started looking for internships around here....not really finding much in MS to be honest. I did find a few nonpaying ones in New Orleans for the summer, but I'm not sure if I'll even be accepted for them or if I am what I would do for money while doing it. I've still got this Brentwood application to take back. I emailed dad asking for a few hundred dollars. Haven't heard back from him yet. I'm not sure I even really want to deal with the guilt trip that he would give me if he did end up letting me borrow the money.
Things are kinda sad for me now....I'm taking alot of stuff really hard lately. It's very depressing, and I don't like it. I'm trying my damnedest to lose weight by walking every day, but it doesn't seem to be doing any good. I think if I was jogging with Donald three times a week as we had originally planned that it would help a good bit, but I just can't bring myself to even see him right now. Hell, just talking to him online sometimes upsets me. I'm gonna give myself a couple of weeks, and if I can't deal with seeing him after that, well, I just can't deal with it. I'll figure out what to do when that time comes. I have my girly issues next week so it'd be a bad time to start jogging anyway. I'm hoping dad will let me borrow that money so I can afford to get my next refill of birth control.....if not, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. I was really expecting to use the money I got from BioLife to pay for that, but since I can't go back 'til May 6th, that's impossible.
Anyway, those are my thoughts at the moment. I really want a job now.....I need something to do to keep myself from thinking so much. Oh, and the money would be nice to have so I can actually buy food and such.