Sad
I am very sad. My friend and I got into a fight. He thinks I make people feel like shit after I buy them things. I don't think this is true, but maybe he felt bad because he knew he was taking advantage of me. He said some mean things and told me that he doesn't love me and that never loved me and never will love me. Also, my other friend is going to Kuwait. I will miss him a lot. He is going to be in Kuwait for 13 months. He said maybe he could come home in 6 months, but I am sure he has his kids and family to see rather than me. I am not a priority in his life. I have to find new friends because most of my friends are having kids or just gotten married. I must be a terrible person because people treat me so bad. I am so tired of being treated like shit. That is why I don't want to talk to my friend, he mad me really sad. The whole weekend, I just slept all weekend. Now, I have to get back to work on Monday. I am so not ready for that. I wish I was a different person or could disappear. I wish I didn't make too many bad choices for myself. I wish I knew what my life plan is and what I can do with my life. It doesn't look like finding a husband or having a family is really going to happen for me. I am so tired of dating because I have been so hurt. I don't want to be hurt anymore. I would rather be alone than hurt. I wish I could be a better person.