Weekend
Nothing much happened this weekend. I saw Footloose. It was good, I really liked all the dancing. My friend came over today, we made out again. I always try not to make out with him, but it always seems to happen. I wonder if God thinks I am a terrible person because I make out with him. The pizza guy told me not to text him anymore because his girlfriend is coming to town. He posted a picture on facebook, that had him with his shirt off and her wearing a bra. It was really classy. I got really disgusted by the picture. He hasn't called or tried to get in contact with me so that is good. I don't want to hang out with him anymore. I always feel like shit afterwards. Well, my best friend's wedding is less than a week away. It should be interesting. I hope her wedding is great and it doesn't suck. My observation with the principal is this week. I hope I do ok with it. I hope I don't get fired or have to do major retraining or will be considered that I am not doing well. I hope I don't have to do that training program that everyone looks over your teaching and you get a teacher to help you. I have had one bad observation in my 8 years of teaching. I am hoping this year won't be bad either. I still feel like I want to die. I feel like it would be so much better. I don't even know why God put me here. I feel like I don't have much of a purpose here. I just sleep all the time on the weekends and don't reach out to anybody. I feel like I am so tired during the week, it is hard to get anything done. Today, I slept a lot so now I am not as tired. But, I am still going to try to go to sleep. So, I can wake up early and get ready for class. I am so scared about my observation. I didn't even write it up yet. I need to write it up and write up a report. Also, I need to lesson plan for Friday. I am taking Friday off to help with the wedding. This is a very stressful week. I am glad I slept a lot this weekend to get ready for it.