...but you know i'd do it all again for you.
Have you ever thought about how life would be if you someone who meant the entire world to you was suddenly gone? I find myself thinking about this lately, more than ever. I've had friends who've taken a different road and gone distances that were hard to reach.. but never like this one. I've never EVER seen someone change quite so quickly, right before my eyes, and be out of sight before I was even gone. And now I'm watching them slowly drift back into a place where i can see them again. I honestly didn't think I would ever speak to this person, in a civilized manner, again. But to my surprise, we're talking pretty much everyday now and I don't think I would have it any other way. I thought that I was just going to have to fight it everyday, the desire to hear his voice and see his eyes.. the want to hear his guitar and hug him.. but now it's all just here.. out of no where. I thought this was going to be the one thing that didn't turn around and astonish the hell out of me. Though I know he will never see this, I just want it to be here in case something happens and someone comes across it and relays it back to him.
You may not think so, but you still make me pretty damn happy. And you may not think so, but I still think the entire world of you.. and nothing less. I was done waiting on you a long time ago, but at the same time I just want you to know that if something were to happen right now, i wouldn't even give us a second thought. I think that if anything were to happen, we would be so much more amazing than we were before, because we know what we've lost and we know what it's like to be gone from one another and we know all the things we did wrong and would fix them... but that's not the point. I figured you should know that you mean no less to me than you did the last time I told you I loved you.. and I don't think you ever will. I've kissed guys since you... but none have even come close to sending chills up my spine or making me feel half as lucky as i did with you. Whoever gets you will be the luckiest girl in the universe, because I know you will treat them just as amazing, if not more amazing, as you treated me. No one on this earth knows where either one of us are going, or where either one of us will end up... but wherever those two locations may be, I want you to always remember I look at the stars, and the moon, the rain, strawberries, edward scissor hands, and just about anything else in the world and think of absolutely nothing but you.
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