when i call on jesus..
"i will be here to catch you when you fall."
i was just randomly thinking about how many people i could count on to say that to me, and i could actually believe them. because those exact words have been said to me so many times and the people that said them have done nothing but disappoint me and break their promises. it's almost september, which always brings unnecessary drama and memories back. september is always the worst month of the whole year, it scares me to death. i know i shouldn't be afraid of what could happen, but i am... just because it's an instinct. i've tried my hardest not to talk to this one person because no matter what he always hurt me. so i was doing so well.. until i see him 4 times in 2 weeks after not seeing him for months. it wasn't as hard to be cold to him like i thought it would, but it still took effort. i guess it always will, though. when i see the words "i will be here to catch you when you fall" i think of 5 people. God, Dylan, Carmen, Kayla, & Tyler. no matter what, those 5 people have always been there. God is my strength, my shield, my everything. Dylan is the boy who saves me from myself. he took my broken, barely beating heart and made it perfect again. Carmen & Kayla are my best friends and never, ever let me down. and Tyler is my best guy friend in the whole world. he's been here through everything. i put him through so much crap, so much drama, so many chaotic catastrophes, and he's still here.
"who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
& who told the ocean you can only come this far?
& who showed the moon where to hide til evening?
who's words alone can catch a falling star?
well i know, my redeemer lives.
i know my redeemer lives.
all of creation testifies,
this life within me cries.
i know my redeemer lives."
i was just randomly thinking about how many people i could count on to say that to me, and i could actually believe them. because those exact words have been said to me so many times and the people that said them have done nothing but disappoint me and break their promises. it's almost september, which always brings unnecessary drama and memories back. september is always the worst month of the whole year, it scares me to death. i know i shouldn't be afraid of what could happen, but i am... just because it's an instinct. i've tried my hardest not to talk to this one person because no matter what he always hurt me. so i was doing so well.. until i see him 4 times in 2 weeks after not seeing him for months. it wasn't as hard to be cold to him like i thought it would, but it still took effort. i guess it always will, though. when i see the words "i will be here to catch you when you fall" i think of 5 people. God, Dylan, Carmen, Kayla, & Tyler. no matter what, those 5 people have always been there. God is my strength, my shield, my everything. Dylan is the boy who saves me from myself. he took my broken, barely beating heart and made it perfect again. Carmen & Kayla are my best friends and never, ever let me down. and Tyler is my best guy friend in the whole world. he's been here through everything. i put him through so much crap, so much drama, so many chaotic catastrophes, and he's still here.
"who taught the sun where to stand in the morning?
& who told the ocean you can only come this far?
& who showed the moon where to hide til evening?
who's words alone can catch a falling star?
well i know, my redeemer lives.
i know my redeemer lives.
all of creation testifies,
this life within me cries.
i know my redeemer lives."