The trees rustle now / The earth sleeps silently and / I am still awake
I find myself being more apathetic about things like school and work and sleep. Or sometimes, I sleep all day and ignore everything. I don't think I'm depressed, but I know that my lack of doing or feeling anything substantial isn't healthy or normal, as far as normal can be defined. It's like I could throw away my life right this moment and I wouldn't miss anything in it, except for my family and friends.
I have no words left to speak and I feel like all I do is act my way through the week, only to drink myself away on the weekends.
My friend from VA Tech is coming on Friday for the weekend, which should be fun. The people from my study abroad group, current roommates (I hope), and I get to show her around Gainesville since she's never been here before. I am in shock that it's October already and that this semester is almost half over if not already so.
I have no idea about my costume for Halloween and perusing costume websites just reminds me that college students + Halloween = T&A fest. Oh well. I really shouldn't bitch, since I basically did that for the last three years too, but maybe this time I should actually put some thought into it and do something creative.
Past Halloween is Thanksgiving, which will be nice despite my undoubtedly having to work the Friday after, since "Black Friday" is a big customer extravaganza each year. I really hope I won't entirely hate my job after that thrilling day comes and goes.
Is this year the year that I find a fantastically gorgeous dress and sip champagne as the year changes from 2007 to 2008? Probably not, but it's nice to think about anyway. At the very least, I'd like to see my favorite people and burn an evergreen or three in happy celebration of the fact.
Well, now that I've done my reading for my first class tomorrow (later today) AND gone through the major remaining holidays of the year AND added another notch in this journal, I think I'll go to bed to the sound of Food Network or the Travel Channel or something.
I have no words left to speak and I feel like all I do is act my way through the week, only to drink myself away on the weekends.
My friend from VA Tech is coming on Friday for the weekend, which should be fun. The people from my study abroad group, current roommates (I hope), and I get to show her around Gainesville since she's never been here before. I am in shock that it's October already and that this semester is almost half over if not already so.
I have no idea about my costume for Halloween and perusing costume websites just reminds me that college students + Halloween = T&A fest. Oh well. I really shouldn't bitch, since I basically did that for the last three years too, but maybe this time I should actually put some thought into it and do something creative.
Past Halloween is Thanksgiving, which will be nice despite my undoubtedly having to work the Friday after, since "Black Friday" is a big customer extravaganza each year. I really hope I won't entirely hate my job after that thrilling day comes and goes.
Is this year the year that I find a fantastically gorgeous dress and sip champagne as the year changes from 2007 to 2008? Probably not, but it's nice to think about anyway. At the very least, I'd like to see my favorite people and burn an evergreen or three in happy celebration of the fact.
Well, now that I've done my reading for my first class tomorrow (later today) AND gone through the major remaining holidays of the year AND added another notch in this journal, I think I'll go to bed to the sound of Food Network or the Travel Channel or something.