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*sigh* Been feeling a bit different lately. What's wrong with me? It never used to be like this. I keep remembering all the fun times we had together, and it hurts me to think of that and see that now we don't have the same relationship. I don't know. Maybe all of you still think that we're as close as we were, but I just think something's been drifting apart.
I feel really weird. I get so self-conscious about what I say to you all, I worry about feeling stupid. I was never one for witty wise-cracks, and I was never a really big talker, unless we were discussing culture or ancient history or something. It takes me five minutes in an IM convo to just come up with a response I'm happy with. I worry that I bore you guys. It's been so long since we talked, and I'm still new to this little cult, I'm still learning about events that happened in our time apart.
I'm probably just being paranoid, and this will probably pass, but I just want you guys to know how I'm feeling right now. I hope you'll have patience with me. I hope we can go back to being close as ever, and I also hope that I can get to know the others outside the cult better as well. If I seem a little off at times, well, I'm sorry, I'm trying my best to get through a period of confusion and frustration, and I'm hoping I'll work it all out. You guys are great friends, and I don't want to lose anything we've had.
~Cate~
I feel really weird. I get so self-conscious about what I say to you all, I worry about feeling stupid. I was never one for witty wise-cracks, and I was never a really big talker, unless we were discussing culture or ancient history or something. It takes me five minutes in an IM convo to just come up with a response I'm happy with. I worry that I bore you guys. It's been so long since we talked, and I'm still new to this little cult, I'm still learning about events that happened in our time apart.
I'm probably just being paranoid, and this will probably pass, but I just want you guys to know how I'm feeling right now. I hope you'll have patience with me. I hope we can go back to being close as ever, and I also hope that I can get to know the others outside the cult better as well. If I seem a little off at times, well, I'm sorry, I'm trying my best to get through a period of confusion and frustration, and I'm hoping I'll work it all out. You guys are great friends, and I don't want to lose anything we've had.
~Cate~