Some Work
So I have recently entered the Singer/Songwriter contest at school and i am a bit nervous. I have never played my work in front of anyone before....
Here are the two that I am entering:
"And it Falls Apart Again"
Verse 1:
Systematic Breakdown
Of you
Lights are dimmed and the curtains closed
and I know that our bow is coming soon
If you wanted me to be
all the things that you said would save us
then how can you just stand and watch as we fall apart
as we fall apart again
Chorus
So take me back to where we started
the things you said gave me a thrill
(and in the moment you'd hide it out somewhere underneath your clothes)
something about you blows my mind
(I tried to find it, i tried to fake it, beyond the silence)
just say you will and maybe we'll find
beneath the heartache, to find an answer, oh god let me just breakdown)
a way to come back
(I thought i had it)
Verse 2
Wishful thinking's a fucked up way
to keep you around
I thought this time it just might stick
but my train derailed
So i'll say goodbye to you
though i don't want to
So goodnight baby, my heart aches crazy for you
and we fall apart again
Chorus
music outro
(in the chorus, the words in the parenthesis are sung over the other words in double the time)
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"Silent Solider"
Verse 1
The things you're not saying keep running through my head
You're fucked up but sober
and I'm better off dead
I'm hurt and I'm stuttering
do you like that you did this to me?
Silent Solider
Loudly breathing
I don't know who you are
Chorus:
So, speak up
and tell me that your heart can't take it
I'll go on
I'm, waiting
for something that your heart can't give me
I'll find it though
Verse 2
We're jsut strangers now
as we pass in the hall
I thought you were something
but your nothing at all
I'm silently suffering
does it hurt to know it's all on you?
Fuck that solider
Barely breathing
you don't know who I am
Chorus
So you,
Spoke up and told me your heart couldn't take it
I'll go on.
I,
Waited for something you just couldn't give me
I'll find it though
I'll find it though
(guitar)
Save that solider
lightly breathing
i'll find out who i am
Chorus
So,
Speak up. I'm certain that my heart can take it
I'll go on
I'm,
Waiting for something, someone's heart can give me
I'll find it though
I'll find it now.
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Anyways...i find it to be extremely angsty and weepy when i read it aloud or write it down...I kinda just sound like an angsty tween... but i figure that it sounds a lot better with the music and it means something. So i guess that I won't be too worried about it. The thing is, is that because it does pertain to situations that are close to me, that I am going to have trouble performing it....any suggestions?
I got a job working for the republican party today...i feel like I am selling my soul...but unfortunately...it only takes $10.50 and hour to do so it seems. I am basically going to be sitting around with pot-smoking, liberal collage students (because those are the ones who need the money the most and it seems like the only people who work there) calling fat, old, uptight republicans all day asking them for money...but hey, if it pays the bills for a bit then i guess i will have to suck it up and deal with it. My dad was pissed though...oh well
I am at work right now. I have nothing to do until two-thirty...fuck overnights suck.