BLAH BLAH
LAST NIGHT @ CHURCH WAS INCREDIBLE. The most amazing thing ever. I have been wanting that to happen in our church for along time... and I wasn't even apart of it because I was being stupid. The whole place was rocking out for Jesus. There wasn't one person standing still. People were just truly worship and didnt care.
I am stupid ..plain stupid.
My mom came up to me and grabbed me and said its time that you be baptized with the Holy Spirit. It shocked me, because that is something that I just quit working for a couple of years ago. I REFUSED. She said are you ok. I said no I dont want to.. How do you refuse somethign God has promised you????STUPIDITY. I was afraid I would just seek speaking in tongues ya know... I didnt wanna try without understanding it. But I am never going to understand it till I have it.STUPID. Now I think the way I am probably going to recieve it is with my mom because that is where I am going to have to humble myself. I get so much pride against her. I HATE IT. I hate the devil. Stupid.I wanted to run away.. my mom left!!! ugh I havent talked to her.. I dunno if she is upset or not. It messed with me the rest of the night. People prayed for me... but I felt stupid I didnt wanna draw attention to me and have a stupid pity part. I have no reason not to praise God. Nothing terrible has been going on in my life. I have everything to be thankful for.....yet I make some kind of problem when theres not one.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH'
Its ok
God is good...
Thank you Jesus for what you are doing in my church, family , friends, and me!!!!!!
I am stupid ..plain stupid.
My mom came up to me and grabbed me and said its time that you be baptized with the Holy Spirit. It shocked me, because that is something that I just quit working for a couple of years ago. I REFUSED. She said are you ok. I said no I dont want to.. How do you refuse somethign God has promised you????STUPIDITY. I was afraid I would just seek speaking in tongues ya know... I didnt wanna try without understanding it. But I am never going to understand it till I have it.STUPID. Now I think the way I am probably going to recieve it is with my mom because that is where I am going to have to humble myself. I get so much pride against her. I HATE IT. I hate the devil. Stupid.I wanted to run away.. my mom left!!! ugh I havent talked to her.. I dunno if she is upset or not. It messed with me the rest of the night. People prayed for me... but I felt stupid I didnt wanna draw attention to me and have a stupid pity part. I have no reason not to praise God. Nothing terrible has been going on in my life. I have everything to be thankful for.....yet I make some kind of problem when theres not one.... UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH'
Its ok
God is good...
Thank you Jesus for what you are doing in my church, family , friends, and me!!!!!!