shreveport, shmeevport.
It's a strange feeling,being away from everyone you know and love. It's one thing when you go on vacation and you know within a week or so, you'll be back to your normal life, able to see pretty much anyone whenever...
It's different when being away IS your normal life.
Chris doesn't get it. He thinks he understands how it feels to be this far away with no one... but he can't get it. He still lives with his family and has people around him constantly. But I love him for trying. For simply being here for me.
The past couple months have definitely been hard. Moving away, not knowing anyone within 250 miles, totaling my car, enrolling in two different schools, absolutely hating the one I spend 95% of my time at, being away from my boyfriend, quitting a band (something that I've always dreamed of being a part of)... the list goes on and on.
I heard someone say the other day that we are always exactly where we are supposed to be. That we are at the right place at the right time, all the time. Even though we may wish we were somewhere else, we are where we are because that's how it's supposed to be. That God intended for me to be here.
I just can't help hating that I'm here... even if this is where I'm supposed to be. It just doesn't feel that way. I'm supposed to be in Baton Rouge, amongst family and friends, and in Chris' arms... How can something that feels so wrong, be so right?
Chris says it will get better. I don't think he honestly believes that, he's just trying to cheer me up. Which I do appreciate.
I know that wherever I end up going to Dental Hygiene school I will be some distance from Baton Rouge... but just not here! I hate being this far. Also, DH school is no piece of cake... I know that, in fact, being away WILL get worse... I'll have less time and won't be able to go home as often.
I think what I need is simply human interaction. And, going to school and listening to a teacher drone on and on for 1 1/2 does NOT count. I need a roommate; I'm sure that would suffice... I just haven't got the slightest clue how to get one of those without picking out a complete stranger over cregslist... I've already heard too many nightmares with other friends doing that.
I need to stop being so pessimistic and shut up, don't I?
Guess I'll get back to studying. Just needed to rant to something.
It's different when being away IS your normal life.
Chris doesn't get it. He thinks he understands how it feels to be this far away with no one... but he can't get it. He still lives with his family and has people around him constantly. But I love him for trying. For simply being here for me.
The past couple months have definitely been hard. Moving away, not knowing anyone within 250 miles, totaling my car, enrolling in two different schools, absolutely hating the one I spend 95% of my time at, being away from my boyfriend, quitting a band (something that I've always dreamed of being a part of)... the list goes on and on.
I heard someone say the other day that we are always exactly where we are supposed to be. That we are at the right place at the right time, all the time. Even though we may wish we were somewhere else, we are where we are because that's how it's supposed to be. That God intended for me to be here.
I just can't help hating that I'm here... even if this is where I'm supposed to be. It just doesn't feel that way. I'm supposed to be in Baton Rouge, amongst family and friends, and in Chris' arms... How can something that feels so wrong, be so right?
Chris says it will get better. I don't think he honestly believes that, he's just trying to cheer me up. Which I do appreciate.
I know that wherever I end up going to Dental Hygiene school I will be some distance from Baton Rouge... but just not here! I hate being this far. Also, DH school is no piece of cake... I know that, in fact, being away WILL get worse... I'll have less time and won't be able to go home as often.
I think what I need is simply human interaction. And, going to school and listening to a teacher drone on and on for 1 1/2 does NOT count. I need a roommate; I'm sure that would suffice... I just haven't got the slightest clue how to get one of those without picking out a complete stranger over cregslist... I've already heard too many nightmares with other friends doing that.
I need to stop being so pessimistic and shut up, don't I?
Guess I'll get back to studying. Just needed to rant to something.