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um... i've been kinda out of it the past few days. and worrying. a lot. that needs to stop, but i just can't. i'm going crrrrrrazyyyyy. ugh. never letting this happen again. anyway, thanksgiving was nice i guess, even though it was really hard to eat food cos my mouth was still pretty sore. but i managed. i really get anxious and nervous around my family though. i don't know why. i guess theres just a lot of angst among them and it makes me feel nervous. except for my cousins on my mom's side ( i didn't see my dad's side at all this year, which i think is a first ever in my life). my cousin (in-law?) told me he was at the gburg/TJ football game on security duty or something, and that was an away game i actually made it to even though it was far away. how random is that? not really i guess since he lives in frederick, but still. so anyway, i have 3 days to send in my UC app, and the essays are all only half written. AWESOME. looks like i won't be going out tomorrow night. (but judging from last saturday night, maybe that's a GOOD thing.) i would like to see people though.