leaving
so i'm quitting working at the cafe at long last its been almost 2 years at abir. i tell people i'm leaving because the shoe store is giving me full time and the cafe with cut hours and really low tips lately isn't worth my time. this is true. but its also true that ive seen everything i ever liked about that cafe go out of it. i've seen atleast 4 or 5 strong going crews go through that place and I've been at the core of alot of them and now i don't relate i'm jaded and i've stopped wanting to meet friends because its so hard to keep the old ones i've made there. Its alot like when i left the museum in highschool it just ran dry. Also if i'm honest i've wanted so badly to be accepted into the heart of the group i helped build who are all cooler than cool and i've always lacked that quality. i don't get them and they don't get me.and its too much like school where i put on a hard face to stay afloat its funny when unpopularity scares you still and makes you depressed even in this huge city of weirdos.