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im doing so good in school i cant believe it. all a's and b's woo hoo!! went to anna's for dinner last night..it was extremely good. then went to mcdonalds..yea i know, can you say FAT?? plus i had BK right before that hahhaha! horrible. i dont care though. then we saw Ben and we all went to watch the OC : ) hopefully no psychos come all the way from fucking DETROIT to follow my ass home and try to talk to me again. STALKER.. scary scary shit.
ive been so happy lately. its amazing..ive been getting along with my mom so much, i love it. my sisters..well i miss them greatly but it just makes it that much better when i get to see them. it just makes our relationship that much stronger though, we never have time to fight. i love emily and brad.
tonight, well, it should be fun, if i go..i can be a stubborn girl sometimes. ahaha i love my friends, they make me happy : )
im very excited for christmas and thanksgiving. i love getting that phone call from my cousins on christmas morning when we tell each other everything we got. i want to decorate the trees with lights outside..but mom said no. WTF we've done it every year since i was .. born. you cant stop now. i have one year left, i need this. our tree has been the same for the last four years, i swear, its all white and gold. what are we..martha stewart or what!? i want it to be like it was before, when we were little...when we put every ornament on that we could find so the branches would hang real low and you could barely see the tree anymore..and had all different colored lights, and tinsil that stuck to everything, and fake snow. ooh man, i miss it. i want stacy to read me the gingerbears christmas, just one last time, just until i fall asleep. i want to be laying in bed christmas eve and get excited when hear a noise thinking its santa on the roof. i want to wake up on christmas morning and be worried that santa didnt come so i would have to sneak downstairs and see if the cookies and milk were gone. i want to see the presents fill the entire living room like they used to, not just under the tree. i want everyone to get along on christmas. i want my dad to not be a drunken asshole. i want to be able to watch the christmas parade on tv and actually enjoy it, not think why the hell am i up so early. i want to go to aunt judys on christmas and play bingo with all the little kids. i miss my grandpa, i wish he was still here. everything would be normal again. i remember being at aunt judys and 1/2 of the presents under the tree were for him. i loved it. he would always look so surprised and say "OOH YEAH, I COULD USE THIS" in his voice.. his voice..i can still hear it.
why do things have to change.
ive been so happy lately. its amazing..ive been getting along with my mom so much, i love it. my sisters..well i miss them greatly but it just makes it that much better when i get to see them. it just makes our relationship that much stronger though, we never have time to fight. i love emily and brad.
tonight, well, it should be fun, if i go..i can be a stubborn girl sometimes. ahaha i love my friends, they make me happy : )
im very excited for christmas and thanksgiving. i love getting that phone call from my cousins on christmas morning when we tell each other everything we got. i want to decorate the trees with lights outside..but mom said no. WTF we've done it every year since i was .. born. you cant stop now. i have one year left, i need this. our tree has been the same for the last four years, i swear, its all white and gold. what are we..martha stewart or what!? i want it to be like it was before, when we were little...when we put every ornament on that we could find so the branches would hang real low and you could barely see the tree anymore..and had all different colored lights, and tinsil that stuck to everything, and fake snow. ooh man, i miss it. i want stacy to read me the gingerbears christmas, just one last time, just until i fall asleep. i want to be laying in bed christmas eve and get excited when hear a noise thinking its santa on the roof. i want to wake up on christmas morning and be worried that santa didnt come so i would have to sneak downstairs and see if the cookies and milk were gone. i want to see the presents fill the entire living room like they used to, not just under the tree. i want everyone to get along on christmas. i want my dad to not be a drunken asshole. i want to be able to watch the christmas parade on tv and actually enjoy it, not think why the hell am i up so early. i want to go to aunt judys on christmas and play bingo with all the little kids. i miss my grandpa, i wish he was still here. everything would be normal again. i remember being at aunt judys and 1/2 of the presents under the tree were for him. i loved it. he would always look so surprised and say "OOH YEAH, I COULD USE THIS" in his voice.. his voice..i can still hear it.
why do things have to change.