bah humbug
I woke up in one of those moods today....where you just hate every one and thing because you get to over analyzing everything.... I went to the store and realized how fucking pathetic people really are.... the cashier in a monotonous voice asked "how are you" I responded in a monotonous voice "good" which is a complete lie because like i said earlier i hate everything today .... its just a automatic response because i notice I seem to say it every damn time a cashier asks me unless im actually in a good mood....because when your actually in a good mood you dont use the word you say shit like really well or great or amazing or fanfuckingtastic you dont say good....and you especially dont say with out any enthusiasm... the worse part about saying good back is after it in the same monotonous voice I also said "you?" ....I didnt know the person or give a shit whether or not her day was as shitty as mine its just one of those programed responses that we spew out of our mouths when were in a robotic trance.... I fucking hate Liars Cheaters Failures and people who always have a dick measuring contest for whose life is worse....by this logic I have to hate myself and it might not be far from the truth... but thats not the part that bothers me the part that bothers me is a hate my friends because of those reasons and i dont know why but even though 90% of the time the only phone calls I get are when people want something and I know it and I hate it but I give it to them any ways.... and I do the same shit with some people and only talk to them when I want something....why the fuck are we all so fucking pathetic and worthless....Im tired of every one myself included ..... holly jolly time of year fuck that its cold gray and miserable outside nothing holly or jolly about it so merry fucking Christmas and lets hear it for another fucking year of me failing to accomplish anything or anyone else actually making any kind of significant difference from last year