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i was driving in the rain today and i was thinking and it made me start crying..a lot. i hate when i drive alone sometimes because it actually gives me the time to think about a lot of things. things that i dont necessarily like to think about. which is pretty much reality, i suppose. In all honesty i just wanted to crash my car into the nearest tree. i think i may just finish high school at scc and then move out of the state. as a fresh start. theres a lot of things going through my head right now, that being a possibility. i may just live by myself also. i have time to think about it though. i need to get a job and save money. and pay my mom back for the apartment i was supposed to move into. i just need some time to think things through.

i saw jeremy today at the mall. i miss him a lot. we hung out for a bit and that was very nice. i love that kid.
i miss rique already.. he still lives here but he has his own car. so i dont think he'll be hanging out as much i guess. i cried yesterday when he gave me a hug. ive been really emotional lately. but i love him. so its okay.
everything will be okay, eventually.