my brain keeps screaming at me...and im not listening!
In general:
So lately ive been running arround, like a chicken with its head cut off, trying to catch up to all my work. its like the speach shane falco gave in the replacements about quicksand, the more you struggle, the worse off you are. that must mean im really in deep. actually i think im in over my head. school, not so much. how is it i can handle writing 15 page papers and all the othe crap i have to, but when it comes to like the simple things, like just saying what you mean and not what you have to say. its been stressfull. its not like i even think about some of the stuff anymore cause its THAT stressful. i just run through the motions of what i feel is more acceptable instead of actually thinking about it and just being my self. maybe i do care too much. in that case i have missed already missed out on too much and that is a shame. im going to be 21 in less then two weeks. im not depressed about that. thats fine, im not thrilled, but then again im not a drinker so i could care less if i can do it legally or not. not something that really affects me.
so ive been off the crutches for several days now and i have to say im kinda sad its over. i mean crutches sucked, but my upper body has gotten very lean. simple things have gotten easier not being on crutches, though every now and then i go a little too far and hurt myself again. i hated this feeling of dependence and not being 100 percent. i hate that feeling of being helpless.
so corey has been at the south pole for the past day or two. its kidna weird talking to him because its like im talking to someone in the future. like tonight(sunday) its monday where he is. so its taking me longer then i thought to adjust to that. still trying to figure out how something like that could benefit me.
so i have another quarterly meeting tonight at best buy(428 evolution 4 life). not so much. freakn cult. i already know its going to be some stupid team building activities, then some boring sub meeting, maybe some pizza and soda(if we are lucky) then maybe some fun..if time permits, not going to get home from it till 11 and i have an early class tomorrow(eeeekkk) that is going to suck.
projects:
-abstract java classes program
-java applet program
-long paper on economics
-"how can an entrepreneur maximize his profit in a competitive market? <- thats what it is about
-group project for english - just started before break
-presentation prep for english project
thats all pretty uch due before the end of next week. except the english stuff. still alot to do.. hopefully skydiving will help clear things up for me.
----games
so i have had a little free time, not alot, but an hour or two here and there so i decided to get gears of war. the game was incredible. i mean the graphics, the game play. it was a great escape from all the daily stress. until i got to general raam. what a bastard, took me three days to defeat his giant mutant machine gun toteing asshole. now im onto call of duty 3. not sure when ill have time to play it but i started it yesturday so i might have it finished by chrismas.(maybe)
and i guess thats all for now. this is all kinda random, but thats because my brain feels like scrambled eggs. oh and im listening to 1985 by bowling for soup. '85 was obviously one of the best years, obviously...since i was born in 19..19...1985!!!
So lately ive been running arround, like a chicken with its head cut off, trying to catch up to all my work. its like the speach shane falco gave in the replacements about quicksand, the more you struggle, the worse off you are. that must mean im really in deep. actually i think im in over my head. school, not so much. how is it i can handle writing 15 page papers and all the othe crap i have to, but when it comes to like the simple things, like just saying what you mean and not what you have to say. its been stressfull. its not like i even think about some of the stuff anymore cause its THAT stressful. i just run through the motions of what i feel is more acceptable instead of actually thinking about it and just being my self. maybe i do care too much. in that case i have missed already missed out on too much and that is a shame. im going to be 21 in less then two weeks. im not depressed about that. thats fine, im not thrilled, but then again im not a drinker so i could care less if i can do it legally or not. not something that really affects me.
so ive been off the crutches for several days now and i have to say im kinda sad its over. i mean crutches sucked, but my upper body has gotten very lean. simple things have gotten easier not being on crutches, though every now and then i go a little too far and hurt myself again. i hated this feeling of dependence and not being 100 percent. i hate that feeling of being helpless.
so corey has been at the south pole for the past day or two. its kidna weird talking to him because its like im talking to someone in the future. like tonight(sunday) its monday where he is. so its taking me longer then i thought to adjust to that. still trying to figure out how something like that could benefit me.
so i have another quarterly meeting tonight at best buy(428 evolution 4 life). not so much. freakn cult. i already know its going to be some stupid team building activities, then some boring sub meeting, maybe some pizza and soda(if we are lucky) then maybe some fun..if time permits, not going to get home from it till 11 and i have an early class tomorrow(eeeekkk) that is going to suck.
projects:
-abstract java classes program
-java applet program
-long paper on economics
-"how can an entrepreneur maximize his profit in a competitive market? <- thats what it is about
-group project for english - just started before break
-presentation prep for english project
thats all pretty uch due before the end of next week. except the english stuff. still alot to do.. hopefully skydiving will help clear things up for me.
----games
so i have had a little free time, not alot, but an hour or two here and there so i decided to get gears of war. the game was incredible. i mean the graphics, the game play. it was a great escape from all the daily stress. until i got to general raam. what a bastard, took me three days to defeat his giant mutant machine gun toteing asshole. now im onto call of duty 3. not sure when ill have time to play it but i started it yesturday so i might have it finished by chrismas.(maybe)
and i guess thats all for now. this is all kinda random, but thats because my brain feels like scrambled eggs. oh and im listening to 1985 by bowling for soup. '85 was obviously one of the best years, obviously...since i was born in 19..19...1985!!!