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in the words of my best friend emily, "nothing is going right lately." couldn't have said it better myself. 2 people that i know have killed themselves in the past 2 weeks, and someone else died in a motorcycle accident.
rich is moving to california on friday morning. he's in love, and i'm happy for him. but it's so selfish. he's leaving us and all he's ever known for this one guy who he hasn't known for too long. i don't want to see him go, he's one of my best friends, and we know we won't see him ever again. that alone is having such a negative effect on my life as of late. his boyfriend also has aids, and he's willing to risk everything, including his life, for this. it's all so romaniticized, i feel like he thinks he'll be dying for love. he doesn't even know what that is, in all honesty. i'm tearing myself apart over this and i don't know what to do/say to him. none of us do.
valentines day is approaching soon. another year alone, i vowed to myself that this year would be different. too bad.
spanish 4h is gone, though. yessssssss i'm so happy about that.
i need something or someone to just, pick me up. i just have a dark cloud hanging over my head, and i want it to just go.
r.i.p jim
r.i.p mike
r.i.p evan
you will all be missed.
rich is moving to california on friday morning. he's in love, and i'm happy for him. but it's so selfish. he's leaving us and all he's ever known for this one guy who he hasn't known for too long. i don't want to see him go, he's one of my best friends, and we know we won't see him ever again. that alone is having such a negative effect on my life as of late. his boyfriend also has aids, and he's willing to risk everything, including his life, for this. it's all so romaniticized, i feel like he thinks he'll be dying for love. he doesn't even know what that is, in all honesty. i'm tearing myself apart over this and i don't know what to do/say to him. none of us do.
valentines day is approaching soon. another year alone, i vowed to myself that this year would be different. too bad.
spanish 4h is gone, though. yessssssss i'm so happy about that.
i need something or someone to just, pick me up. i just have a dark cloud hanging over my head, and i want it to just go.
r.i.p jim
r.i.p mike
r.i.p evan
you will all be missed.