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omg--it's soooo much information to input; i'm okay--A's so far in everything i've touched---except for the lecture thing on wiley plus--one attempt & there was this randomized answering glitch--like i'd click on "a" but it would bubble in "c" -- and since i had to complete it--i just christmas treed it. fuck it--it's ONE assignment. I can't get perfect grades all the time--it's okay to get a 98--it's still an A.
in other news i really just don't like pi's shrink. i agreed to come in and talk about pi; and she's pushing me to be in counsel. push push push--and she's really getting invasive. she got accusatory, empathic & familiar all in the first session. wtf? kk people--i've had 11 years of psychotherapy & psychoanalysis. i know the game. i also know to trust my gut; gut says 'no' here. last straw--end of session, " so do you want to come in every week, every two weeks; or should i just call you when you need updating?"
"oh--just call me when I need updating."
"so--september 15th is good?"
"sure"
i just wanted to leave; so i agreed to the next appointment.
but i'm not doing this! it's really expensive & despite my belief in counsel as being helpful--i just don't like this woman. i'm like this with people--i try to disregard my first impulse with people & give them a chance. 90% of the time that first impulse is correct.
after an hour i have a good take--either in conversation or working; i know whether or not i can trust.
unfortunately, pi is really invested in this relationship. i see a train wreck ahead--time to switch the tracks.