Where have all the Bears gone.
In the late nights that I have been staying up, I have been doing pondering. I don't normally ponder, I usually think, but pondering involves a sense of scheming and futuring. I have been taking a serious look at where I currently am, and this is my fourth attempt at getting such thoughts out of my head and onto a form of writing work. (the first two times I lost my nerve to write before I got to the computer). I don't know why I feel so compelled to share these ideas of mine with you friends of mine, most of whom have long forgotten the livejournal in favor of sending 140 words at a time. But I digress.
I am 20. In the eyes of the law and the technicality of no longer having the -teen suffix at the end of my age I am officially and utterly an adult in every technical sense of the word. But I'm not an adult. I don't know what happens when one reaches adulthood, is there a secret party of some sort, do I get a membership card? I have no membership card, nor have been to any suspect parties. I am still a boy, and have yet to unlock the achievement that allows me to evolve. I could quote Clark from season 3, but it seems rather pointless as I feel I have made my point.
There are things that I will do when I become an adult, and things I must do, and things I cannot do until I'm adult. It seems like it is just around the corner, but that corner is over the horizon.
Maybe a job will help. But people say jobs suck the life out of you, so is that what an adult is? I doubt it. Maybe its that feeling of independence, it is very hard to consider yourself independent when you don't have to front the bill for school food or boarding, and as such I don't consider myself independent. So I will try to get this job and see how I feel after that.
However! I feel that I must stress this. No matter what happens, I will always be me, just a grown up funnier version. With wisdom comes humor, or so I am told. I wonder if growing a kickass beard will help. I'll be all rugged and stuff.
Also if anyone feels like getting me a late christmas present. I could use a scarf and a new beanie.
*sidenote* I have been watching too many british shows, I am adding u's where they don't belong.
I am 20. In the eyes of the law and the technicality of no longer having the -teen suffix at the end of my age I am officially and utterly an adult in every technical sense of the word. But I'm not an adult. I don't know what happens when one reaches adulthood, is there a secret party of some sort, do I get a membership card? I have no membership card, nor have been to any suspect parties. I am still a boy, and have yet to unlock the achievement that allows me to evolve. I could quote Clark from season 3, but it seems rather pointless as I feel I have made my point.
There are things that I will do when I become an adult, and things I must do, and things I cannot do until I'm adult. It seems like it is just around the corner, but that corner is over the horizon.
Maybe a job will help. But people say jobs suck the life out of you, so is that what an adult is? I doubt it. Maybe its that feeling of independence, it is very hard to consider yourself independent when you don't have to front the bill for school food or boarding, and as such I don't consider myself independent. So I will try to get this job and see how I feel after that.
However! I feel that I must stress this. No matter what happens, I will always be me, just a grown up funnier version. With wisdom comes humor, or so I am told. I wonder if growing a kickass beard will help. I'll be all rugged and stuff.
Also if anyone feels like getting me a late christmas present. I could use a scarf and a new beanie.
*sidenote* I have been watching too many british shows, I am adding u's where they don't belong.