jugular
tongue is tethered, a moisture-less muscle that gallops on the spot. grind teeth into pavement outside the door and make bones of new asphalt. feel the sickness, swallow the chunks that come back up. floss with her veins. spread and make cloth of old stomach lining. pliers to fingernails and an orgasmic elation. spinal fluid delight. throw into walls. throw into gutters. kissing like curbing. split on the corners. failing and competing just to win you. carcass from films. fucked in the mouth. a jaundice romance. deafening. weak. pethadine. owned. evaporated.
my mother is dying.
every day i lose a little more of her.