long time no journal
SO.... i've been gone like the WHOLE summer! i don't even remember the last time i wrote on here (way back in the day though) so this has been the best summer yet! i've been so extremely busy! Here's how my summer has gone.... -Cruise -Crossfire -Mission Trip -Camp -Dalton -BEN! (i've been home for a week at the MOST!)
SO anyways.... i just had the best 50 hours of the whole entire summer... my ex (BEN) came all the way down from dalton to visit me b/c i missed him while i was there... so i get home and there is a message on the answering machine from him... saying that when i'm in Dalton to give him a call and bla bla bla.... so i call him back... and he up and desides he's coming the VERY next day to come see me! i mean i was VERY doubtful that whole night and the next day until he called and said he was at wal-mart.... i just didn't want to get hurt again... by expecting too much from him... but he really came!!! The chemistry is still there... and Quig gave me her 10 cents worth on the whole thing.... my whole deal is just that he was my first true love... so there will always be SOMETHING there... but i also think that since we are still (obviously) friends.... i still have hope somewhere in my heart! how pathetic am i!... i was thinkin' last night at the pool w/ him... (we were discussing relationships and stuff...) that it would be so cute if we were one of those couples that were high school sweethearts... and would ONE DAY marry???? who knows? that's my fairy tale life!
SO... we did TONS of stuff... but i'm too tired to type it all... and there's some that doesn't need to be mentioned :o) but... he left today :o( and he never called when he got home... i pray that he's fine... and either just plain forgot to call me... or was SO tired... that he just went home and crashed! hopefully he'll call me tomorrow on the way to Missouri (that's why he left early)... or do i just live in make-believe land???? oh well??? the whole ben deal is probably hopeless anyway... i'm just still in love...
goin' to bed now...
(thanks quig for helpin' me out w/ lake ella... and your 10 cents... it was good to see ya tonight.... it's been a while...)
SO anyways.... i just had the best 50 hours of the whole entire summer... my ex (BEN) came all the way down from dalton to visit me b/c i missed him while i was there... so i get home and there is a message on the answering machine from him... saying that when i'm in Dalton to give him a call and bla bla bla.... so i call him back... and he up and desides he's coming the VERY next day to come see me! i mean i was VERY doubtful that whole night and the next day until he called and said he was at wal-mart.... i just didn't want to get hurt again... by expecting too much from him... but he really came!!! The chemistry is still there... and Quig gave me her 10 cents worth on the whole thing.... my whole deal is just that he was my first true love... so there will always be SOMETHING there... but i also think that since we are still (obviously) friends.... i still have hope somewhere in my heart! how pathetic am i!... i was thinkin' last night at the pool w/ him... (we were discussing relationships and stuff...) that it would be so cute if we were one of those couples that were high school sweethearts... and would ONE DAY marry???? who knows? that's my fairy tale life!
SO... we did TONS of stuff... but i'm too tired to type it all... and there's some that doesn't need to be mentioned :o) but... he left today :o( and he never called when he got home... i pray that he's fine... and either just plain forgot to call me... or was SO tired... that he just went home and crashed! hopefully he'll call me tomorrow on the way to Missouri (that's why he left early)... or do i just live in make-believe land???? oh well??? the whole ben deal is probably hopeless anyway... i'm just still in love...
goin' to bed now...
(thanks quig for helpin' me out w/ lake ella... and your 10 cents... it was good to see ya tonight.... it's been a while...)