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So life has been up and down for me. I've been subbing every day until this week. Jobs are starting to slow down a little because teachers are needing to finishg out the year and wrap things up. Went to the job fair in Spokane yesterday and got a lot of applications. We'll see what happens with that! A friend got married, 4 more engaged (all within a month or two), and I'm going to be a bridesmaid for my best friend's wedding next summer. This one I'm excited about because I've been waiting for her to get married since they've been dating for 6+ years now! And I was so happy that she asked me to be a bridesmaid even though we haven't kept in touch very well, but regardless, we have remained friends since 2nd grade and I moved in 4th! I love Cheryl dearly and am so happy for her! Yakima has it's ups and downs. I love the eastside of the mountains, but I'm not too sure if I'm wanting to stay in Yakima. Honestly, at this point, I'm just soooo ready for a change that I'm willing to move to an Indian Reseveration in AZ for a teaching job if they'll hire me! I'm just in a "funk" right now and need change. I need to get away and just go somewhere. Anywhere! Just get away from everyone that I find myself, and others, comparing me to. Find a new place, with new faces, where I don't feel like I'm the one friend who doesn't know where the hell my life is going or feel like I'm always the 5th wheel when hanging out with friends. I love my friends dearly and would miss them if I moved, but I need a change! I'll always keep in touch, but I need to get away from here. Find myself. I don't like who I am right now. Man, sometimes I wish I was still in the "freshman" mentality and would just go party every night and get drunk so I didn't have to think about all this stuff. But of course reality sets in. I look at how things turned out for me freshman year when I did do that, and know that it's not any way to solve my unhappiness about things happening in my life. For now, I'm going to keep hoping that I keep getting sub jobs (even though some days are crappy!) so I can make some money, and look forward to June when I'll finally get to see my Grandpa (who I haven't seen in 2 years), cousins, and sisters/nephews. Thre are definitely great things about my life that I love, but at the same time I'm searching for something new!