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So it's been awhile since I posted anything. I told my parents today how frustrated I was with my stupid Parent Involvement classes and just classes in general. I started crying. Ugh! I hate that part about me! When I get stressed out, angry, sad, or ANY kind of strong emotion... I cry! But I guess it's good so I can just release all of my energy. Oh! Also, my prof didn't show up on Thursday to class! I have a feeling she dind't want to face all of us cause we were all PISSED about our midterms she handed back the class before! But what the heck are we paying her for?! Seriously?! This is the FOURTH time she hasn't been to class and we only have it two days a week! I'm NOT paying this money to her to learn nothing! It's so frustrating and after talking to my parents I'm pretty sure I'm gonna try and get some of the girls to come with me and talk to the dean.
That's my rant. :)
On a better note... my best friend Rachel from high school came to visit! Finally! After going to school here for 4 years and after many broken promises... she finally made it! She stayed for 3 days too so I was happy! I was really hoping to sit down and have a serious conversation with her about some things that I haven't told her about, but it was never the right time. I didn't want to bring a downer onto our few days of her being here. I just know that I NEED to tell her about things cause she's my best friend and she deserves to know what has happened in my life to effect who I am today. In other words... I need to talk to her about how I was raped Freshman year. Her and my family are the only ones that don't know about it. I have been able to tell everyone else, except for them. And I don't know why. My oldest sister knows... cause after some things happened with Matt beginning of this year I ended up telling her. And my parents found out last summer cause they had come across a poem or letter I had written and left in my room. But I've never had a real discussion about it with any of them. I have no idea what is holding me back either. It's such a BIG part of my life that effected me more than I can say, but I can't even tell them about it. What is wrong with me?!
But I was happy to have Rachel here! :)
Tonight was the campus cruise. It was fun. Got kinda old after awhile though. But still had fun. Really needed some more boys there though to dance with! Nicole, Katie, and I tried to teach Jordan how to dance. Rather humorous. :) I love the boy to death, and he tries so hard, but he just doesn't have the moves! BUT! He did do good tonight! We just figured out that Jordan is better at doing "popping" and other kind of dancing, rather than the "rolling your hips" kind of dancing. :)
All in all is was fun tonight. :)
My parents came today too and took some stuff home and traded cars with me. Now I'm sportin' the mini van! Yeah buddy! I'm drivin the shaggin wagon. :) I'm soooo cool! K, not at all! Now for the next three weeks wherever I go I'll look like a soccer mom. Just what I need to attract a guy! Or not!
Oh yeah! I got my placement for student teaching and pre-autumn! I'm at Valley View in a Kindergarten class. I'm stoked! Even though I was hoping for Thorp, Ellensburg is second best! Now I don't have to get up NEARLY as early as Angela and Shauna do in the morning next year and I just have to drive across town to the school! I'm still nervous at times about student teaching. I REALLY don't know how great of a teacher I will be. I have reservations about it a lot, but I might surprise myself. I really hope my cooperating teacher is good, and friendly! Not to mention helpful! My biggest fear... other than never getting married and having a family.... is that I will fail as a teacher. It has been the only thing that I have wanted to do ever since Jr. High and if I'm not good at it.... I don't know WHAT I would be good at! Oh geez... life is starting to begin right before my eyes! Life that is after college. It's a scary thought!
Well, I think I have talked your ear off enough. I'm heading out and going to bed! I gotta get up in 5.5 hrs for church.... ah geez. Why did I say I would go to the 9:30 service?!