got a trailer today, cut firewood last week, painted a couple sheds, gotta get some oil in the truck and clean up the joint, dogs face got chewed up some too
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I can't think of any time I've been so disillusioned, been so betrayed. I really had to just sit down for some time and try and reason why anyone would throw their friends away. Like maybe I was fooling myself all along, hangin with mike might have been selfish of me since I wanted to learn from him as a mechanic and so on. But after all this, what does it matter. Even in a best case scenario, if I were to forgive and allow time to clean up hard feelings, there's no chance that this will happen again, so how can I trust his company anyways... I know I'm awesome and generous but sometimes just to careless and trusting to keep track of the details, I mean I can own up to maybe talkin shit after work a bit much, but these country assholes where the ones that taught me. dammit these people piss me off I know 'em too well. But that's ok, I'm my own man and I don't give a crap anymore. In fact 2008 has come and gone, in feb 08 I moved into a little cabin at the LB (lucky boy) Lawrence, Katherines place and have been there a year or so getting by in very different ways, trying to keep the truck running, never having gas and so forth, got fed up with the harsh weather and vacant economy -so decided to hitch north in August to Washington or beyond where jobs remained on the vast sea... and then bob fuck up my hand and it hurt alot so I came back here. since then having faced my mortality and come to grips with this fitfull fate... well I dunno actually haven't done alot just salvaged more things with the truck and got a puppy gotta go
i will get bycatacronicFebruary 6 2009, 05:52:09 UTC
got carried away, guess I type alright with my left. so to finish up, that accident was on aug 27, 09, husled one-handed to get county med coverage and stuff, food stamps all that. had a paper route for two weeks even. 1st surgery was oct 29th 08 and since then I've had follow-ups but not so much therapy rehab or whatever cause UC Davis is far away -an hour and half drive easy, I'm 70+ miles southeast from Sac. so this surgery yesterday was to remove scarring on the tendon in my thumb, and check tendon tightness and stuff. I got to stay awake for it but they barely let me watch. so that tendon broke again in the operation room and so it's put together and here I am still. but it's not all bad at all. its spring again so I'm growing all kinds of stuff and getting out of the hole more. trading with antique stores, burnin brush, alot of country stuff. I dunno man I'm on painkillers too. san andreas sucks btw cause it closes at 7pm except the gas station. small towns, but there's a flooded quarry right down the road. and the mokelemne and stanislaus rivers, truck works for me, and that trailer I got this week is a toyota bed with a hitch, I got it from a hillbilly, plenty of rust. later
But after all this, what does it matter. Even in a best case scenario, if I were to forgive and allow time to clean up hard feelings, there's no chance that this will happen again, so how can I trust his company anyways... I know I'm awesome and generous but sometimes just to careless and trusting to keep track of the details, I mean I can own up to maybe talkin shit after work a bit much, but these country assholes where the ones that taught me. dammit these people piss me off I know 'em too well.
But that's ok, I'm my own man and I don't give a crap anymore. In fact 2008 has come and gone, in feb 08 I moved into a little cabin at the LB (lucky boy) Lawrence, Katherines place and have been there a year or so getting by in very different ways, trying to keep the truck running, never having gas and so forth, got fed up with the harsh weather and vacant economy -so decided to hitch north in August to Washington or beyond where jobs remained on the vast sea... and then bob fuck up my hand and it hurt alot so I came back here. since then having faced my mortality and come to grips with this fitfull fate... well I dunno actually haven't done alot just salvaged more things with the truck and got a puppy gotta go
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