*gasp* Update.
Wow, it's been a couple days. Months. Whatever. Anyway... I'm not dead yet. I leave for Idaho in 6 days and I'm so fucking scared that I'm going to be perpetually wetting my pants from now until then. I'm currently housesitting for my boyfriend, and I am such a nice person that I cleaned it and febreze'd it and vacuumed and folded his laundry and made his bed and changed his sheets and everything. I rock. Too bad I'm just doing it to avoid packing my own shit.
Other scary news... Nick -is- moving to Moscow. That puts a lot of damn pressure on me. I just don't know if I'm ready to quit dating at 18. Don't get me wrong, I love him to death and I'm happier with him that I've ever been, except once, but that was a long time ago. The way he explained it to me was that he can't, with a good conscience, just let me go and not even try. He told me I was supposed to just be a summer fling (sound familiar?) but now he can't just leave it at that. He'll never forgive himself if he doesn't see what we can be. But honestly, I've never been this comfortable around a guy only after two months. If only it were possible for him to grow a couple inches :-P He's like 5'8-5'9. Which makes for a few funny looks when we're together. I went to Lincoln, where he's working right now, for three days, and it was nice. We really got a chance just to talk.
In other news... I bought a laptop and a digital camera. I'm hoping to pay them off when I get my residual financial aid check, which should be for at least 2 grand each semester. That's cool... At least I'm making money just by going to school. It makes high school worth it. Anyway... I need to actually go to my own house and get ready for work. I have tonight and then two more shifts and I'm done. I can't wait. I fucking hate that place... Anyway..
That's my life right now...
Other scary news... Nick -is- moving to Moscow. That puts a lot of damn pressure on me. I just don't know if I'm ready to quit dating at 18. Don't get me wrong, I love him to death and I'm happier with him that I've ever been, except once, but that was a long time ago. The way he explained it to me was that he can't, with a good conscience, just let me go and not even try. He told me I was supposed to just be a summer fling (sound familiar?) but now he can't just leave it at that. He'll never forgive himself if he doesn't see what we can be. But honestly, I've never been this comfortable around a guy only after two months. If only it were possible for him to grow a couple inches :-P He's like 5'8-5'9. Which makes for a few funny looks when we're together. I went to Lincoln, where he's working right now, for three days, and it was nice. We really got a chance just to talk.
In other news... I bought a laptop and a digital camera. I'm hoping to pay them off when I get my residual financial aid check, which should be for at least 2 grand each semester. That's cool... At least I'm making money just by going to school. It makes high school worth it. Anyway... I need to actually go to my own house and get ready for work. I have tonight and then two more shifts and I'm done. I can't wait. I fucking hate that place... Anyway..
That's my life right now...