finale.
hey kidds. hows life? ive got a lot to say.
read if you'd like. but a lot of you probably
wouldnt guess this stuff.
to start off, i cried last night. =P
wanna know what i cried about?
not telling. cause as far as everyone knows,
ive been "over it".
everyone would critisize me,
tell me to get over it, nothings gonna change.
nothing much has changed, so what am i waiting for?
well im not waiting.
for everyones information.
im actually doing much better than before.
no one has a clue of how bad it effected me.
and i sorta laugh at myself over it.
how it took me so long.
i blamed it on myself, too. so that didnt help.
& i went over the whole thing,
wondering what I did wrong.
what I should have done.
could have done.
=\
im stupid sometimes.im sorry.
i dont know why, but im sorry.
on his part too. because if im not
sorry, i feel that i did so much wrong,
and im not taking any credit for it.
i might have hurt a lot of people
along the way, and that hurts me, too.
but now im fine.
so dont ask me if im "okay"
dont ask me "whats wrong".
dont ask me anything.
because theres nothing wrong.
i AM okay.
sometimes i just dont seem like it.
i get weak, we all do, because
teenage life is hard sometimes.
im not gonna complain.
it doesnt help.
but we all have our problems,
so leave them alone.
even if you want/need to help.
its appreciated sometimes,
but worthless.
in my case, i help myself.
thanks, though.<3
a lot of advice has come my way,
and ive taken it. ive used it.
and it worked. and ive given
some of my own advice,
which worked for some people.
my main problem was that
i cared. i cared too much.
but eventually, i just stopped caring.
because it hurts way less.
i lost too much time.
caring just occupies
your mind with bad things.
i dont like bad things.
i cant handle them anymore.
i almost gave in a couple times,
i wouldnt have been here without
some people.
im insane, arent i?
whatever.
i dont care.
im me.
ill always be.
=\
sorry if thats a problem.
the holiday is coming soon,
2 days, and im not gonna
let anything ruin it.
im not gonna care.
<3 its cold outside,
so im gonna go enjoy it
while its here.
byes<33
read if you'd like. but a lot of you probably
wouldnt guess this stuff.
to start off, i cried last night. =P
wanna know what i cried about?
not telling. cause as far as everyone knows,
ive been "over it".
everyone would critisize me,
tell me to get over it, nothings gonna change.
nothing much has changed, so what am i waiting for?
well im not waiting.
for everyones information.
im actually doing much better than before.
no one has a clue of how bad it effected me.
and i sorta laugh at myself over it.
how it took me so long.
i blamed it on myself, too. so that didnt help.
& i went over the whole thing,
wondering what I did wrong.
what I should have done.
could have done.
=\
im stupid sometimes.im sorry.
i dont know why, but im sorry.
on his part too. because if im not
sorry, i feel that i did so much wrong,
and im not taking any credit for it.
i might have hurt a lot of people
along the way, and that hurts me, too.
but now im fine.
so dont ask me if im "okay"
dont ask me "whats wrong".
dont ask me anything.
because theres nothing wrong.
i AM okay.
sometimes i just dont seem like it.
i get weak, we all do, because
teenage life is hard sometimes.
im not gonna complain.
it doesnt help.
but we all have our problems,
so leave them alone.
even if you want/need to help.
its appreciated sometimes,
but worthless.
in my case, i help myself.
thanks, though.<3
a lot of advice has come my way,
and ive taken it. ive used it.
and it worked. and ive given
some of my own advice,
which worked for some people.
my main problem was that
i cared. i cared too much.
but eventually, i just stopped caring.
because it hurts way less.
i lost too much time.
caring just occupies
your mind with bad things.
i dont like bad things.
i cant handle them anymore.
i almost gave in a couple times,
i wouldnt have been here without
some people.
im insane, arent i?
whatever.
i dont care.
im me.
ill always be.
=\
sorry if thats a problem.
the holiday is coming soon,
2 days, and im not gonna
let anything ruin it.
im not gonna care.
<3 its cold outside,
so im gonna go enjoy it
while its here.
byes<33