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[cata_strophe]

uhmmm

i feel screwed over.
and worthless.

thanks.

do i even have any real friends anymore, i mean, seriously.
i dont mean to complain or anything, but i need someone the most right now.
and its funny how when that happens, no one is there.

even if they say they are,
they probably dont give a crap.

im sorry, but at least i always check
if one of my friends are alright.
even if they seem okay, ill still
ask.
because i love my friends more than
anything. even if they dont love me
back.

i sound mean right now,
and sorry if i am.

i say sorry a lot,
because i cant stand to
have someone mad at me,
or have someone be
dissapointed.
And i mean it when
i say it.

im in the crappiest mood
in the world right now,
and i really dont know why.

im tired of being me.

i wasnt always like this.
what happened to me this year?
i hate how one little sentence
from someone can change my whole
day.i hate it.
'i miss you'
wtf.
thats not as half as much
as i feel towards you.
who knows if you even meant it.
wtf i need to get over this.

whatever.