life of now in general
ok so i was supposed to be out today. obviously i'm not. tomorrow, for sure. it's really stange. i mean,, i'm excited to have a new adventure; to start off clean. but at the same time, there's all i'm leaving. my home, my life, my love; my heart will always remain here, no matter how many friends i make or where i am. i have been blessed with you all as my friends and i thank God for all of you. i don't want to give anyone the impression that this is forever. it's goodbye, not farewell. and after each and every goodbye comes a hello. even if it's from a different person. don't ignore the world of hellos around you. i'm not really sure if that was for you guys or myself. oh well, a little both. i promise i will come back over this break. so it won't be long. my house is all echo-ie becacause it's pretty empty. that's kind of sad. i could never forget the awesome people that you are. my clocki on my computer is wrong. it's always been an hour early. ok, that was random. oh, got the new number and mailing address. cool, huh? i'll let everyone know individually anyway. so i have had an uber long week. i hope you've all enjoyed school. i'd give anything to go back. i miss you guys all. i wish i hadn't taken it for granted all these years. it's just been the norm for me. i wish i could put into words what i feel right now and get it off my chest, but it such a wierd feeling that i really don't know if i'd choose the right words. i guess i'll try with each of you in turn.
CONOR, what can i say, i love you. i always will and i wish i never had to leave your side. i can't believe the distance. i dreamed off you the other night. you're so beautiful. i'm listening to the cd you made me right now. i love you. you will always be my sunshine, my love, and my joy forever.
HEATHER, you've been my bf since fifth grade and i cannot describe what you mean to me. i love you. you're an awesome friend and i want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being there. you are the most constant and amazing person i know. you will always be in my heart and nothing will change between us now. your voice and your heart will bring you far. you are my heatherly, my private sandwich, my truest friend.
MICHELLEY, you are amazingly easy to talk to. you're a really, really cool person and you definately have a lot of charisma. thanks for listening to my incesent complaints. i feel we've grown very close and i never want to lose that bond. you were, and i'll never forget it, my first kiss. lol. you got action first. i've known you since planetarium and that's a long time; i've known you as long as i've known conor for God's sake. i love you and i'll miss you.
GINA, oh man, you are, and excuse me if i mess this up, my teenage mutant ninja turtle red-headed...other stuff...twin. it's been so much fun being your friend. i hope you will always keep your passion for life alive. you might not see that, but it's true. you're an extremely unique and at the same time cliche person. i hope you don't mind me saying that; it's not bad, it makes you interesting. mmm, bop! i love you sweetie. keep hanson alive for me. oh, and we're both queen bees.
SQIFI, my girlfriend. i love you forever. i will read the fifth book, i swear. i've cried to you and that's saying something. and you know what means even more, you never judged me for it. you never thought less of me because of my selfishness or my sensitivity. i can't thank you enough. you are the most honest person and the sweetest. no one else can be continuously nice to everyone with such little effort. i'll say for everyone that we all love you.
OLGA, my wife. i may have cheated on you, but you are always my wife. i'll admit, you're the fourth person i've married, but i love you just the same. we've been very open with each other and i think that's great. i have cried to you as well and i thank you for listening. i'm glad we became so close so fast. and i'm glad that you felt you could talk to me. we will remain good friend hopefully forever.
JOHN, what is there to say. we've been through a lot together. i will never stop loving you. you are an awesome guy and i hope you realize that. you will always be a huge part of my life. i wish you the best of luck in NC and we'll miss you lots. jason has no idea what he's missing, believe me, i do know. i don't know how much this means to you, but you have always been in my prayers and always will be. i feel that we have a strong connection as different as we may be and i feel that the more i pray the stronger it will become. i don't know if you've realized yet, but i don't want to leave with secrets from you, so conor and i are together again. i don't really know why i hadn't said anything before. i hope you can ignore that i hadn't. thank you for being able to keep my darkest secrets. i think you probably know the most about me because i am entirely confident in telling you everything. i love you.
MEGAN, i'm sorry. i really am. i hope we can be ok. you're a really fun person. keep your spunk all your life. much love. only megan.
ROGER, we were never really all that close and i'm sorry for that. you've always been a mystery to me and i think that's cool. keep being mysterious, it give you a lot of charm as wierd as that may sound; people will always be interested. but at the same time don't be afraid of opening up when needed.
KRISTINA, jebidiah, hich-finn, and i promise to be mean to someone at some point. moloney will always wear blue and there's no point in questioning it. keep me posted on happenings.
ALL, whether mentioned above or not, i will sorely miss you all. i don't have any specific order to it. i love you all. thank you for your support and love and i will keep in cntact.
ok, i've ranted enough. i will keep in touch with each of you. thank you again, you will always be a part of me. bye(not farewell).
-catherine
CONOR, what can i say, i love you. i always will and i wish i never had to leave your side. i can't believe the distance. i dreamed off you the other night. you're so beautiful. i'm listening to the cd you made me right now. i love you. you will always be my sunshine, my love, and my joy forever.
HEATHER, you've been my bf since fifth grade and i cannot describe what you mean to me. i love you. you're an awesome friend and i want to thank you from the bottom of my heart for always being there. you are the most constant and amazing person i know. you will always be in my heart and nothing will change between us now. your voice and your heart will bring you far. you are my heatherly, my private sandwich, my truest friend.
MICHELLEY, you are amazingly easy to talk to. you're a really, really cool person and you definately have a lot of charisma. thanks for listening to my incesent complaints. i feel we've grown very close and i never want to lose that bond. you were, and i'll never forget it, my first kiss. lol. you got action first. i've known you since planetarium and that's a long time; i've known you as long as i've known conor for God's sake. i love you and i'll miss you.
GINA, oh man, you are, and excuse me if i mess this up, my teenage mutant ninja turtle red-headed...other stuff...twin. it's been so much fun being your friend. i hope you will always keep your passion for life alive. you might not see that, but it's true. you're an extremely unique and at the same time cliche person. i hope you don't mind me saying that; it's not bad, it makes you interesting. mmm, bop! i love you sweetie. keep hanson alive for me. oh, and we're both queen bees.
SQIFI, my girlfriend. i love you forever. i will read the fifth book, i swear. i've cried to you and that's saying something. and you know what means even more, you never judged me for it. you never thought less of me because of my selfishness or my sensitivity. i can't thank you enough. you are the most honest person and the sweetest. no one else can be continuously nice to everyone with such little effort. i'll say for everyone that we all love you.
OLGA, my wife. i may have cheated on you, but you are always my wife. i'll admit, you're the fourth person i've married, but i love you just the same. we've been very open with each other and i think that's great. i have cried to you as well and i thank you for listening. i'm glad we became so close so fast. and i'm glad that you felt you could talk to me. we will remain good friend hopefully forever.
JOHN, what is there to say. we've been through a lot together. i will never stop loving you. you are an awesome guy and i hope you realize that. you will always be a huge part of my life. i wish you the best of luck in NC and we'll miss you lots. jason has no idea what he's missing, believe me, i do know. i don't know how much this means to you, but you have always been in my prayers and always will be. i feel that we have a strong connection as different as we may be and i feel that the more i pray the stronger it will become. i don't know if you've realized yet, but i don't want to leave with secrets from you, so conor and i are together again. i don't really know why i hadn't said anything before. i hope you can ignore that i hadn't. thank you for being able to keep my darkest secrets. i think you probably know the most about me because i am entirely confident in telling you everything. i love you.
MEGAN, i'm sorry. i really am. i hope we can be ok. you're a really fun person. keep your spunk all your life. much love. only megan.
ROGER, we were never really all that close and i'm sorry for that. you've always been a mystery to me and i think that's cool. keep being mysterious, it give you a lot of charm as wierd as that may sound; people will always be interested. but at the same time don't be afraid of opening up when needed.
KRISTINA, jebidiah, hich-finn, and i promise to be mean to someone at some point. moloney will always wear blue and there's no point in questioning it. keep me posted on happenings.
ALL, whether mentioned above or not, i will sorely miss you all. i don't have any specific order to it. i love you all. thank you for your support and love and i will keep in cntact.
ok, i've ranted enough. i will keep in touch with each of you. thank you again, you will always be a part of me. bye(not farewell).
-catherine