Where have I been??
Ok, well no where, but I just have nothing of any worth to write about. Well I applied for the nursing program at CR. I won't know if I get in til next month, but I just have to get in. I am so burnt out by school, I need to get in, so I get motivated again. So I don't lose my drive, confidence, or all the knowledge that I have learned. That stuff is hard to hang on to, if you don't use it you lose it. So I am praying that I get in. I know I will.
So, damn being single. I hate watching all of my friends(I am the only single one)with their guys. It makes me realize how much better it is to be in a partnership. If only for the company, I always feel like I am tagging along with my couple friends. I never have anyone to talk to when they are kissing, cuddling, wispering among themselves. I hate it. What the hell is wrong with me, why is it impossible for me to find just 1 guy who is interested in me, and not just for a fuck. Cause I know if I was a slut I could've already been with a hand full of guys, but I want them to remember my name the next day. And well those guys never do, or care to. So I am still not that desperate.
My friend said that she read somewhere that your birth control pills can have an affect on how picky you are about a mate. I think maybe I need to change my pill, cause I am so damn picky. I don't know, it is all so disheartening.
But then I think, well the must be a reason. I can't be getting all involved in a new serious relationship when I am going to need to put all my attention on school stuff. SO I guess that must be the reason. But I am so lonely and horny. LOL Damn it all to hell.
So, damn being single. I hate watching all of my friends(I am the only single one)with their guys. It makes me realize how much better it is to be in a partnership. If only for the company, I always feel like I am tagging along with my couple friends. I never have anyone to talk to when they are kissing, cuddling, wispering among themselves. I hate it. What the hell is wrong with me, why is it impossible for me to find just 1 guy who is interested in me, and not just for a fuck. Cause I know if I was a slut I could've already been with a hand full of guys, but I want them to remember my name the next day. And well those guys never do, or care to. So I am still not that desperate.
My friend said that she read somewhere that your birth control pills can have an affect on how picky you are about a mate. I think maybe I need to change my pill, cause I am so damn picky. I don't know, it is all so disheartening.
But then I think, well the must be a reason. I can't be getting all involved in a new serious relationship when I am going to need to put all my attention on school stuff. SO I guess that must be the reason. But I am so lonely and horny. LOL Damn it all to hell.