Acceptance
It is becoming more and more obvious that very few people will ever see this Journal ((And only one of them really matters...Yes you babe. )) And it is even more obvious that it doesn't really matter to me. As much as I hate to admit it, I only started this Journal because Joycelin had one and I wanted to play around with it a bit, and more and more often I'm finding myself wanting to make a post..Wanting to talk to something or someone, and usually it's Joycelin, But it would be absurd to think I'd be able to speak with her every hour of the day, So you'll have to do Journal. I Think this Quasi-Illness will only last another day or so, and I'll be very thankful when It's over, I Hate feeling weaker then I know I am, and it's been much harder to think clearly as of late..Like I said, Hopefully this is over soon. Another thing that has been eating at me..Is my lack of a life. I Wish I had something to consume my time, Something other then a game, a book, or T.V., My days are spent more or less waiting for Joycelin to get home,(Gods know I can't wait for her to get home, she makes everyday a great one) And I know Basic Training is only 3 or 4 weeks away, But Still...I Feel useless. Heh, I Tried to explain this to Joycelin awhile back, but..Without school for these past 4+ months, It feels like that mental edge, that polish to a quick wit and responsive mind is failing. I Don't know if I could do those same Trig or Calc problems now, Or if I could write a flowing essay with the slightest breath of life to it. I Want to learn something... to do something, I'll figure something out eventually. Well...This Headache simply isn't going away, and for some reason..In the last couple of hours I've been getting fairly sore...I'm going to lay down for a bit, Take it easy Journal. Love ya *Chuckles and winks*