Warning: rant
Oookay. So I go out with some folks in my class tonight, trying to be all sociable-like. Not bad, but kinda boring. I plan on leaving at midnight, but one of the other girls says she's staying a 1/2 hour longer. Damn it. So I stay, then call the cab at 12:30. Cab comes at 12:45 and I can't find her. Finally get a text, she's staying. Damn it. I would have left at midnight. *sigh*
Rant part 2: One of the guys asks me if I was upset about our last "peer assessment." Peer assessment. Ridiculous. Call it a popularity contest. I answer that yes, I was. I felt like I did a lot of things for the class and I wasn't rated very high. He proceeded to tell me that he admired a lot of things about me, but that I come across as acting like I was better than everyone else. He also said that I was a bit less tactful than I should be.
Am pretty upset. I don't think I'm better than anyone. As a matter of fact, I have been feeling quite the opposite since I've been here. I don't measure myself against them, I measure myself against my own standards, and no... mediocre is not good enough. *sigh* I think I'm a freak. I don't understand the way people think sometimes. I don't understand jealousy and I don't understand this either. Gah. This is why I don't usually even try to socialize. I fucking hate people. (not individual persons, but just in general)
Rant part 2: One of the guys asks me if I was upset about our last "peer assessment." Peer assessment. Ridiculous. Call it a popularity contest. I answer that yes, I was. I felt like I did a lot of things for the class and I wasn't rated very high. He proceeded to tell me that he admired a lot of things about me, but that I come across as acting like I was better than everyone else. He also said that I was a bit less tactful than I should be.
Am pretty upset. I don't think I'm better than anyone. As a matter of fact, I have been feeling quite the opposite since I've been here. I don't measure myself against them, I measure myself against my own standards, and no... mediocre is not good enough. *sigh* I think I'm a freak. I don't understand the way people think sometimes. I don't understand jealousy and I don't understand this either. Gah. This is why I don't usually even try to socialize. I fucking hate people. (not individual persons, but just in general)