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it's funny to me, how I always find myself in the same position. wondering who is hurting more, and why can't we just get over it together so all of it can be gone. why can't any of us really just face what's bothering us, love, broken hearts maybe? instead of just covering it with hate for one another.
hate? maybe I do hate you. maybe if you loved me than I'd hate you, instead of possibly the other way around.
although I know what the answer is. I know that I have never loved you, or felt the same for you as I had for that one, the one that always came before you. I knew, all the times I was mean or cruel to you, that what I was doing was really following my heart. It does not make me miss you less, or want you.
because no matter how much I deny, the facets of our relationship really were more than just A and B. and I miss you calling me on the phone and making me laugh. fun, we always had fun. I do want to be near you, I want to be friends, although friends has never been a word to describe thisusthatthing.
why am I constantly wasting my time?
you fucking nazi.
Save The Walfins : waiting is so hard and the only things you ever have to wait for are ones that you want immediately
hate? maybe I do hate you. maybe if you loved me than I'd hate you, instead of possibly the other way around.
although I know what the answer is. I know that I have never loved you, or felt the same for you as I had for that one, the one that always came before you. I knew, all the times I was mean or cruel to you, that what I was doing was really following my heart. It does not make me miss you less, or want you.
because no matter how much I deny, the facets of our relationship really were more than just A and B. and I miss you calling me on the phone and making me laugh. fun, we always had fun. I do want to be near you, I want to be friends, although friends has never been a word to describe thisusthatthing.
why am I constantly wasting my time?
you fucking nazi.
Save The Walfins : waiting is so hard and the only things you ever have to wait for are ones that you want immediately