Jan 09, 2005 15:15
Kataryna , Julia, and Gabby were swinging on the three large swings. It must have been around 9 P.M.I was lying there in the sand; hearing, but not listening. As though their talk was muted and everything else was on high. In the cold sand each noise was sharpened, the leaves fell in great symphony. Were they really just falling leaves or were they the footsteps of the invisble?
In a fast motion I jerked myself about, mostly to get the sand off. I came to a giant tree. I sat behind it covering my face. I removed my hands only to find Estelle sitting next to me. How did she get there without making a sound? I was taking heavy breaths. I told her I couldn't breathe, that since I felt asthough I couldn't see or hear I was invisible.
Hours were minutes, and we always ended up in the same place.
I said I'd be right back, and I just started to run. My first intention was to go all the way to the end and back, but was stunned by the beauty, the emptiness, and stopped in the middle. In the middle of the field everything was clear. 360 degrees, and there I was in the distance. I laid down flat and looked up to the sky only to see the stars were moving, talking to me, blinking, and fading. They were dying. I was dying.
All of this thought put to an end by screams. Then all at once the friends in the distance started running and scattered over the field. I could hear them screaming out to me, and all I wanted was to respond, but I couldn't, as though I was in some muted shock. I just waited, and then, a shadow above me.. "she's right here."
The scattered group formed again and we ran. Still the screams continued. I ran to Estelle's car with Gabby, and the other's to Jessica's. Just then I saw Jessica's car much as a Jaguar on the prowl.. going on to the field to maybe see where the noise was coming from. We drove away.
There was silence in the car, I think everyone was alot more afraid then I was. Or maybe, my mind was just wasn't processing the situation. Either way, I once again could not see, could not hear, and thus became invisible. Visible only when Estelle broke the silence and asked me if I was OK. I nodded.
Infront of me was a car, and I couldnt help but think it was smiling at me, and so was every single one we passed. Smiling to tell me something. To tell me things were all okay; that I wasn't invisible.
Estelle said "..and that is why you should never go out at night without a guy, and I'm not talking about some pussy bitch like Nick Myers." I stuck my head out the window and kept it out until we reached my house. She said If I needed anything I could call her. I guess everyone realized I wasn't okay, I wasn't going to be okay.
Gabby left my house around 10:30, I watched T.V. with my father until 1:30, talked to Kat on the phone for a while, then fell asleep around 2, my usual hour. That night I slept like a baby.