Change.
Change is a strange thing. Life always has to move on, yet it makes me frightened and uneasy when it does. I cling to people, places and routines like a drowning person clings to driftwood - I know inevitably it will sink under the current of time and I'll have to make my frightened splashing way to the next piece, but until then I'll cling on and pray that it will stay afloat just that little bit longer.
I'm facing the fact that I'm going to be losing friends. Not permanently, and not in a total sense, but still, you never quite realise what you have until you're forced to acknowledge that you may well not have it for very much longer. Australia is a very long way away - I hear it's a whole other continent, in fact.
I'm happy for them that they are going, but sad that they have to leave in order to do so. On a selfish level (which is where all my opinions and thoughts must start and eventually return), it changes the shape of my day to day week to week life quite considerably, and that unsettles me. And that's on top, of course,of the not-inconsiderable fact that I'm losing friends out of my life.
I guess.. I guess I fear what is Unknown, and change is the ultimate enabler of that.
But I'll smile and say Bon Voyage, because it's what is right and good for them, and I can see that all too well, and hopefully I can remain happy for them, even if it is bittersweet.
I don't seem to have a way of ending this that doesn't leave it sounding like it was negative post. It was supposed to be more of a musing than a mope - guess it's just that it's late and I'm tired that leaves it sounding so blue.
I'm facing the fact that I'm going to be losing friends. Not permanently, and not in a total sense, but still, you never quite realise what you have until you're forced to acknowledge that you may well not have it for very much longer. Australia is a very long way away - I hear it's a whole other continent, in fact.
I'm happy for them that they are going, but sad that they have to leave in order to do so. On a selfish level (which is where all my opinions and thoughts must start and eventually return), it changes the shape of my day to day week to week life quite considerably, and that unsettles me. And that's on top, of course,of the not-inconsiderable fact that I'm losing friends out of my life.
I guess.. I guess I fear what is Unknown, and change is the ultimate enabler of that.
But I'll smile and say Bon Voyage, because it's what is right and good for them, and I can see that all too well, and hopefully I can remain happy for them, even if it is bittersweet.
I don't seem to have a way of ending this that doesn't leave it sounding like it was negative post. It was supposed to be more of a musing than a mope - guess it's just that it's late and I'm tired that leaves it sounding so blue.