Oats,Honey and Raisins
the last three days i've gone to the marlins games. i now look as that time as time away from the world although im still surrounded by jackasses who scream at the guys on the team and howl at the marlin mermiads ! it's an esape from my room which always makes me cry...i cried last night ...for many reasons ...things just wont seem to work out for me . nothing will, i mean sure i have the little things going for me ...wopdy do !big fucking deal. yet every sunday i find my self still in church still believing in the principles that i follow even though up to this point i have VERY LITTLE to be thankful for. everyhting i've earned has been from the hard endurance of my fucking ass and my parents giving me shit....for example the $340 guitar i'm about to buy is money from the candie i entrapenuered at school...a garage sale and working out west on people's homes and digging holes...nothing i've been givin in this life has been easy..not like the rich jewish kids at my school who wear abercrombie and have a 2005 bmw! go ahead call me jealous..im sorry nothing was handed to me on a silver platter. looks ...well those have never really been on my side ... the only thing i have going for me is my talent and thats something no one can take away...only enforce to become better. my talent in writing has gotten much beeter the past two years...im about to have two poems printed in books...and hopefully a very succesful band. i've realized lately that i've trieed to fucking hard to get a girlfriend and that im going to lay low ...till someone who wants me comes and gets me ( which will probably never ever happen and i'll die alone , which is my worst fear ) . Someone who's actually interested in me and not the materialistic shit this fucked up world has to offer ! Like my ex girlfriend...she was a great gal but ...to materialsitic
.. to focused on what she could get with money from her job and watching soap operas that were faker than wrestling ! to focused on her cell phone nad not her grades ..to focused on other people and not me because for just one day ...i fucked up...well you no what ..here's my new attitude ..i feel the same inside but i refuse to show i care any longer . FUCK YOU WHOEVER YOU ARE ! FUCK YOU!
.. to focused on what she could get with money from her job and watching soap operas that were faker than wrestling ! to focused on her cell phone nad not her grades ..to focused on other people and not me because for just one day ...i fucked up...well you no what ..here's my new attitude ..i feel the same inside but i refuse to show i care any longer . FUCK YOU WHOEVER YOU ARE ! FUCK YOU!