I dont know
There are a lot of things that I think about when I should be doing work instead. Right now it's how I am feeling. I think I'm slipping back into a pattern where I just get so busy and don't really think about myself. I mean, I just go day to day going from point A to point B. Everything I do is to reach the next destination and doesn't really have any real meaning or tangible reason as to why I need to do or go there. For example, the only reason I go to classes is so I can graduate. Beyond that, I don't really think "how will this help me later in life". I want more to my life than just to go from a to b. I feel there is an adventure I am missing in life. I think it could come from the fact I haven't traveled outside my "homes" in over five years. Yeah, going to the beach is all fun and whatever, but it's the beach. There is fucking sand there, and I hate sand. I despise sand. The beach isn't exciting either, to me its like a huge tourist trap. Everything there is overpriced and meant to lure in people to buy things they will never need. Things such as hermit crabs with stuff painted on their shell, huge beach towels, wake board, and all the other things they sell for no real reason. I feel like I need more adventure in my life to get rid of this monotony. I mean, sometime that is good. For now, I'm not so sure. I guess maybe this all comes from talking with Gus for like...3 hours. And he mentions he gets bored with the same ol same old, and really I'm getting to the point I need some type of change. It also could be because I've not been home in forever. I don't know. I just know I want a change to occur. I just don't know what...