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By reading all of this material about education and teaching for my Teach For America requirements, I had an epiphany about myself as a student. I am unmotivated to do my current work because it is not relevant to my upcoming future or career goals. In fact, it is hindering me from my career goals and future desires, and therefore I'm increasingly angry at it an unwilling to do it. Case in point, I do NOT want to do my research papers because I want to be reading about Teach for America, learning Spanish, visiting the middle school and reading articles about education. History research papers have no bearing on my life goals at the moment, and so I hate the sight and sound and smell of them. It is exactly the problem I'll be trying to face with my students (hehehe, my students, oh god I'm terrified) because they will demand to know how the hell all this is important to THEIR lives. Crap. I have to answer that question for myself at the moment, and I'm failing miserably. Ummm...I suppose I have to remind myself I love history and I am almost done with it all. I love history. I love history. I'm almost done. I'm almost done. Soon, I will no longer have to do it, soon it will be over...I can't wait until its over... Wait, this isn't going well...