Fic: Cernunnos- 2/2

[castielssock]

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[anonymous]

So I was the OP of this prompt and Holy Shit. It's as if you dug into my brain to figure out everything I would in my wildest dreams hope to see, and then you added things I didn't even know I wanted (transformation? Hello, new kink). AND THEN, everything was written with so many layers and with Dean's POV and oh my god. How Castiel started to come back to his old self at the end (I assume he found his cause, as Meg talked about?) And necessity making Dean realize so early on that he trusted Castiel again. Your concept of Purgatory was really lovely, too.

He'd learned there was a beautiful kind of torture in recreating another's shape around them, stripping of their last comfort-the safety and familiarity of their own form-and then using it again them. It never failed to get them to break. Dean slipping into the torturer mindset and almost analyzing what's happening to him? Holy shit again.

This: It had made its way to Castiel's front now, and Dean hated the way it looked down at his friend (and he still had that title, he did), as though he was something pitiful. Dean wondered then if that was how he looked at Cas as well, and he hated that idea even more. And this: The rest of Dean, though, the parts that weren't his own (or at least that's what he forced himself to believe later, because anything else would be too heartbreaking, too shattering to accept) roared with delight at the idea, at the promise of more of this, more of Castiel, and he could feel it everywhere in his body, spreading without compromise. Are both really, really great.

And then the sex. The drugged out, so fucked up, so horrible and horrifying (and scorching) sex. Dean's own rational self fighting to break through kicked the whole thing up like ten notches.

It could have been different, been so much better, but the dreams he'd had of anything else were already melted, in shreds around them, hanging like entrails, and Dean might've wanted to weep for it another time. But not now. DDDDDDDD:

This is obscenely long, but I wanted to quote even more. So basically, if you write that sequel you're thinking of, no prompter will ever be quite as happy as I will be. Ever. Because it's already perfect and that sequel sounds perfect, and I don't really know what happens when two perfect things combine but I would like to read it very much. Thank you, thank you, thank you for filling this!!!!

[castielssock]

asfsdgdfh I'm so happy you liked it, I was so nervous oh my god. But wow, what a lovely comment, I want to hug it to death, you're way too nice. This was such a fun fill to write so thank you so much for the prompt, I think this is the first time in a while that I've actuallyenjoyed writing.

I'm seriously considering writing up a sequel (mostly because I have a srs boner for knocked up!Cas), but if I did, is there anything specifically you might like to see? Plot-wise, or kinks or something. I'm open to suggestions. :)

But yes omg, I'm so relieved you thought this was up to standard and aaaah thank you so much for commenting ily<3

[anonymous]

I would happily read whatever you have planned for a sequel. (I have the same boner for knocked up!Cas). I will say though that I really, really loved the ending to this, with the tone of it (and that last line, which I didn't mention before!), and I definitely wouldn't mind Dean and Castiel kicking ass and taking names at some point. Um...also I wouldn't mind a bit of mixed reaction to the pregnancy - I really loved the moment where Dean can't even quite believe it's even possible. So somewhere in between this thing is evil! Die! Die! and this is the greatest thing to happen to us!!!!

But honestly, I'm 100% sure wherever your muse leads you will be wonderful :)

[castielssock]

Dean and Cas being badass is like my favourite thing. I mean, I like when there's whumpage and specifically Cas!abuse (shh it's a sickness), but I don't like it when they're outright victims, because my boys are bamfs okay and they can get the better of this shit, they just need the right opportunity. Basically, the only way these demons would be able to stop Dean and Cas from attempting to break out and kick their ass would be to keep them drugged up and docile at all times. And even then, knowing these stubborn SOBs, they'd build up a resistance or something.

I like the idea of the uncertain feelings towards any possible pregnancy because I feel like Dean would be very wary and very much in denial about the whole thing for a while. There's already been some of that, and I think if Cas did end up in the family way, then Dean would find himself struggling between his hunter nature (because unnatural magic creature baby) and his strong, familial instincts, and the urge to protect. There'd probably be some left over effects from what the demons have done to him as well, so he'd have all of these primal urges to protect and defend niggling at him as well. So yeah, he'd be quite the mess of emotion.

As for Cas, I feel like he'd be more inclined towards a confused sort of wonderment. And perhaps a bit of awe, because after all, that's a part of Dean Winchester he's carrying around in him, y'know? He might even end up more like his old self instead of crazy!Cas if he's forced back into this role of protector as well, because I think he'd definitely bond with whatever it is that's inside of him,

But asdfjdfhfgj I'm writing an essay here, Jesus. I'm just getting a little over-excited thinking about all the possibilities. Buh.

Okay one last thing, in regards to kinks, is there anything you don't want to see? For the porny parts, I'm heavily leaning towards the idea of emphasis on Cas' pregnancy, including lactation and maybe slight belly!kink, because guh hot, but are there any lines you really want to draw? Also, I had this idea that because of the prolonged exposure to the transformation spell thing the demons did, Dean and Cas might end up developing some other animal traits, like grooming, for example. Mostly because I wanted to find an excuse for Dean to lick all over Cas' body heh. Especially if that includes his wet little hole. :x But yeah, just an idea. TELL ME YOUR THOUGHTS.

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[anonymous]

I like when there's whumpage and specifically Cas!abuse (shh it's a sickness), but I don't like it when they're outright victims, because my boys are bamfs okay and they can get the better of this shit, they just need the right opportunity.

Yes! Exactly. Seriously, all of your thoughts here are my thoughts. I don't even really know how to respond because I kept nodding my head and saying 'Yeah!' as I read. This could go so many different places from here and I'm eager to read what you come up with.

As for kinks, I'm pretty much unsquickable. Yes please to the pregnancy thoughts, and I'm intrigued by the bit about picking up some animal traits. I haven't really read much like that so I'm really curious and excited for it! (Is nuzzling an animal trait? Just um purely, hypothetically wondering...for no reason whatsoever)

[castielssock]

Sorry for the late reply, real life got crazy busy!

I'm still working on a sequel, it's just taking me forever because of all the other stuff I have going on. I'm not sure when I'll be finished, but hopefully you'll still be around to read whatever I come up with! I actually love coming back to write this verse because knocked-up!Cas is apparently my new favourite thing to write, and if I have the time, I could probably see this expanding beyond a sequel tbh. It's just such a fun sandbox to play in!

But yes, I think nuzzling could definitely be an animal trait. Y'know. Hypothetically.

[castielssock]

Idk if you still track this thread or if you've already read it but I'm just letting you know that I posted a sequel to this fic last week! You can find it here- http://castielssock.livejournal.com/2299.html

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