long time
well its a long time since i posted here. i was posting on my myspace page. let me post here what i posted there for you.they will go in order from oldes to newist. ______________________________________________________________________________ fake
i hate all these people i see around me. they are all fake. they are all acting some way or another beacuse they want to. but me i can act how i want to. no that would be bad. and all these people complain about there parents and how they dont get to go to a consert or some shit like that. but me i never get to go any wear. you see the clothes i wear. i dident buy them. i dont want to wear them. they are what my parents want me to wear. and it rilly pisses me off. i cant be myself but all these assholes that complain can be themselves. it is the kind of thing that makes me want to burst out in tears. How am i susposed to be myself when i live in this house with these people. i cant so what iam i susposed to do? fun sunday Current mood: content
o that was a great sunday.
we went to sanfransisco. it was great. we went to the beach, the metreon, peer 39. and i got sick off of a creap the size of my head. though i thought it was going to be small (the picture was misleading). but it was a great day. i loved it very much.
Me so happy
Ok i am so happy i had a great sunday then today was a good day as well. the school year is almost ofer so that is good i like that. that makes me happy. i got a new book. and i am so intrested in it. it is like so cool. i have to read it mor and more. it is merrik by anne rice. this book brings together her 2 worlds. the witches and the vampires. i love it and i love any one who reads this!!!!
i say
I can never say the things i want to say. Its kind of sad. Its just how i am. i guess it from all the years onder the eyes of the parents. so since i cant say these things how do i say them? through my music. thats how. but i dont think that any of my friends are listening to the words. i think they just listen to the beat, tone and all that shit.
This pises me off. i Hat the Armed forces. they do this.AHH THIS IS WHY I HATE THE GOVERNMENT!!
Army discharges gay solder
An openly gay Army sergeant who was awarded the Purple Heart for his service in Iraq was discharged Tuesday -- not under the "don't ask, don't tell" policy, but because the term of his military contract had ended, according to an LGBT military advocacy group.
In May 2004, a grenade explosion injured Sgt. Robert Stout, 23, in his arm, face and legs while he was serving in Iraq. Despite those injuries, he went back to continue his tour of duty. He was also awarded the Purple Heart for his sacrifice.
Stout, of the central Ohio town of Utica, told the Associated Press (AP) in April "/news/article.html?2005/04/07/1" if he could be open about his identity. "I know a ton of gay men that would be more than willing to stay in the Army if they could just be open," Stout said.
Aaron Belkin, director of the Center for the Study of Sexual Minorities in the Military at the University of California-Santa Barbara, told the PlanetOut Network he spoke with Stout just before he returned to the United States.
"Stout came out of the closet when he was already a month away from discharge," Belkin said. "First of all it would have been bureaucratically inefficient [to invoke 'don't ask'] and second of all his story was already making headlines. The military knew it would have looked bad."
"Stout wants to serve, just not for an organization that treats him as a second-class citizen. He was wounded and went back into battle. His peers knew he was gay -- they didn't have a problem with that. The question is why the Army and the Congress have such an issue," Belkin said.
Steve Ralls, spokesman for Servicemembers Legal Defense Network (SLDN), added, "It's unfortunate that the military's gay ban has denied the talents and devotion of a Purple Heart recipient. It's another stark example of how 'don't ask, don't tell' affects military readiness."
Military readiness has made headlines recently, with reports that the armed services' recruiting efforts are flagging. In April, the Army missed its recruiting goal for the third month in a row, while the Marine Corps missed its recruiting goal for the last four months -- for the first time in 10 years.
Ralls said "don't ask, don't tell" is a part of the problem. "If the 10,000 gay and lesbian members who were discharged under 'don't ask, don't tell' were still serving today, there would be potentially be a smaller shortage, or no shortage at all."
AHHHHHH
Seriousley i am going to die on finals day. The stress is killing and i can only pretend not to be stressed so much. IT IS KILLING ME. and i am so far behing in everything. i got to work on my b.o.s. ahh. o i got homework to do. guess i better get it started
Ha Ha
I am done with my english and my science work. YAY
2 down 4 to go
ok people i am done with english and with spanish. almost done with the other 4. SO HAPPY NO MORE SPANISH!!!!!
i'm out
i am all done with school. n more of those wack off's that were in my classes. yay. now we just have to see what senior year brings
in love with
o i am so inlove with my book
it is so good
Ok very bad day.
So as if things arnt bad enough in my house, i am now the oldest. My mother kicked my older brother out of the house. Then the bitch has the balls to tell me that she isn't susposed to put up with the names we call her. we treat her like a fucking saint. That bitch has no idea about the things she dose to me. even if she dosent meen to. I wish she was dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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o she got her wish
Ok so my mother pushed me over the edge. she just ooo just pissed me off so much i called her a bitch, then she called me a fat ass and i told her she had a fat ass to. she just keeps pushing me further and further. and i can see it i know what she wants but she isnt going to get it. no she isn't The bitch wants to be left alone and then get grandchildren. well i can see she isnt going to get it. she is driving us all away. i know my younger brother is going to end up in jail. My older brother he will dissapear. Me i dont want kids. I am going to dissapear as well. I will come back after she is dead to pour a bottle of irish wiskey on her grave, after i pass it through my bladder. Thats what she diserves thinking she can do this. no i am not her toy that she can treat like this. she thinks that she treats me so well. HAHAHA
. no she hates me. She would hate me more if she knew who i was but she dosent so she hates me for what she knows.
o to watch her die that would be a sight to see. to see that second where her spirit leaves the body and she becomes nothing. It is one of the things that keeps me going. i want her dead. but i need her that is so sad. i just want to see her dead after i am long gone and maby happy for once. that would be perfect. then i will take this house, o i will make it my own, and all her crap its all gone to good will or in the garbadge (except the photos that i save to remember what was). Its all gone. to hell with the bitch and all that was her. its gone and i will be free. then i can be happy. For once truley free to be happy. its all i want and it cant happen till i know that the bitch got what she diserves and was reincarnated as a bug. then i would be so luckey to be the one to step on her. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA