The Lesson on Remorse: Completed
You ever spend a number of years regretting the way things ended with a former lover, constantly blaming yourself and your backward neuroses for the relationship's demise and shamelessly seeking answers/forgiveness from this other party periodically in the form of unanswered emails that proclaim your sincere apologies and soul-baring vulnerabilities to this still-untreated heart wound only to come upon the discovery [far later on] that this certain lover wasn't entirely truthful and may actually hold a majority of the blame despite all these years of unrecognized/ignored/belittled guilt and apologies on your part?
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There are things that I've heard a million times but never really "got". That thing people like to preach to the tune of "Remorse/regret/resentment hurts no one but yourself" made sense but never really hit home for me until juuuust this week, when I stumbled upon a handful of truths that didn't justify my actions, but certainly alleviated my guilt.
Although, really? I should have just gotten the fuck over it and moved on years ago like normal people. Because whether the blame was mine or his, it clearly didn't matter to begin with.
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Thank you, God. Lesson learned.
::::sigh::::
There are things that I've heard a million times but never really "got". That thing people like to preach to the tune of "Remorse/regret/resentment hurts no one but yourself" made sense but never really hit home for me until juuuust this week, when I stumbled upon a handful of truths that didn't justify my actions, but certainly alleviated my guilt.
Although, really? I should have just gotten the fuck over it and moved on years ago like normal people. Because whether the blame was mine or his, it clearly didn't matter to begin with.
::::siiiiigh::::
Thank you, God. Lesson learned.