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So I figured I should update on my mom. Haven't done that in a while. She's still in the hospital. Been there since early June. She's okay, stable and stuff. She's had a catheter put into her heart twice now during this stay. It's a little thingy that measures how much/well/bad each chamber of the heart is working. The tests confirmed it: she's got a really bad heart. Duh. Anyway. She's really high on the transplant list, which is good, but it means she's really sick and in need. But as long as she's in the hospital she won't die. If she came home and started going down hill she'd just say, 'no i'm fine' and she'd probably die. So she's in a good place.
I failed developmental math again. Fifth time. I emailed the dept head to see about course substitution and it's not allowed for developmental courses. Makes sense. I'm still fighting it though. It's a a pass/fail class, so I only needed a %70. I don't know what my percentage was in the class. If i find out it's like 68 or 69, I'm gonna be pissed. So right now I'm trying to find a way to resolve this. I don't wanna be that student that pisses and moans to get a passing grade, but if other people can do, why can't I? The squeaky wheel gets the oil, and this wheel is ready to SHRIEK. If I can't come back for the fall at least I can still audition for the show.
Life has been hell lately. I've been babysitting Lane, which usually isn't a problem. But I'm stressed, he's stressed, my whole family is falling apart because of my mom's health. I have to switch from being the big sister to the mom basically, and he's not having it. We fight like cats and dogs. Then the other day my dad said I was the woman of the household now. That was a little freaky. Then I have to be a good girlfriend, student, daughter, sister. It's killing me. Lane will be in school soon and that will alleviate some of the stress. Mom should be getting a heart withing the next few weeks. She may even be home for Christmas. God I hope so. I want her home so much. It's just not fair.
Anyway I guess that's it. Much love for you all and please pray for my family, especially my mom. If praying isn't your thing, send us some good vibes. Grazie.