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[cassluvsyou]

im doing a lot better than i was yesterday
i was so scared i wouldnt be able to sleep last night
and it was kinda true.

yesterday happened to be my best school day this year...i listened and held on to every word my professors said today, i wanted more than anything to think about anything other than the news i got yesterday morning. and it worked and now i am kinda thankful because i did so well yesterday.

although when i got home i didnt know what to do with myself.
i tried to take some drugs for my pain and then sleep it off...
it didnt work.
i finally went to sleep at 5am.
but indeed today im better.
i woke up with a different attitude and im excited for this weekend
and the end of tomorrow
i have everything due tomorrow...

i really need to get to all the work i need to get done
but distraction is so easy.

i love outside right now.
i want to study outside
but its so nice out i cant concentrate
i cant anyways
my mind is completely cluttered
i moved stuff around my room last night just to keep it going so i wouldnt break down again

i snapped at my mom yesterday and i really wish i hadnt.
she didnt do anything but i snapped.

SNAp

reality check.